i feel like just jumping down from my house or take a knife and slash myself a few times to make sure that the bleeding won't stop or do something which will land me in hospital..so that i won't have to see you and feel heartbroken. each time i see you, i long so much for you to be back...sad to say, you didn't. I told myself i won't cry a tear for you but in the end i still. you may think im so stupid/dumb or silly..i won't giva damn..no matter what, i'll still be there..