went Bugis this afternoon to buy something. walk walk awhile. then back to northpoint to restock on my stationaries..

bump onto lesner, vincent and weijie at bugis.
wad can i say?..singapore is just too small. =D



i've absolutely no mood for mid-yr.
bad stuffs are happening to the people around me.
god bless.




jjen.

I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
A little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Cos I believe that we can work things out
I thought I had all the answers never giving in
But baby since you've gone
I admit that I was wrong
All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you
I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together
and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all
I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you

How my ever gonna get rid of these blues
Baby I'm so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You're the only thing that's on my mind
Oh my beds so cold at night and
I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right
no I'm not too proud to say

All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you
I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and
we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...
I'mlost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all
I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you
If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away
Can't stop the tears from running down my face
Oh
All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you
I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and
we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way
but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you

okay. i have nothing to blog. no mood to blog also.

everything gon` be fine.
everything gon` be alright.


__prayhard





withlurrve,
jjen

i was totally freaked out during bio lesson today...

Mdm K: they cut 'it' when ure abt to give birth so that the baby can come out.
girls: Eeee!!! yucks!!! ouch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mdm K: then after that, they sew back.
girls: -eyes wide open
Marc: then my grandmother give birth to 12 kids how? there put zip arhh..
whole class laugh till sides hurt...lloll

gosh..come to think of it, i don't wanna get pregnant. okayy. im scared. it sounds so horrible pls. just imagine your cervix get expanded, your *ahem gets cut and stitched back immediately after the baby pops out..aww~ terror...... =(( but i lurrve babies. how? hees...sounds contradicting isn't it?

nothing pretty much happen today. as usual, i kept knocking off during lessons time. cheryl and kevin have to kept me awake. cheryl, thanx alot for ur wet tissue. at least it kept me awake for sometime *grins.
accompany stef to hunt for joey's burfdae prezzie after sch. went home after that..not to forget, a pigg called on my way home. lloll.

just checked my friendster account. that pigg's friend sent a msg and add me. 'xiaohui' i think. hmmm..im recalling what she wrote. had a hard time brainstorming what to reply herr..nways, im really confused. nothing seems to be right for me.

Next week is the start of mid yr already and i know what subs im gon` flunk. Amaths & comb'sci...god bless~









withlove,
jjen

tho we had a lil 'conflict' recently, but we are still friends right?
at least thats what i think.
i really hope your guys will be alright after all...
god bless~






withlove,
jjen

sorry people if i din call back.
cuz i cancelled my caller.id
sorry for those miss-callers out there...

Happy burfdae to stef =D .

another freakin` stuffy day. had pe today. i guess that ticko lee was in a cheery mood cuz he let us have an early recess..and its really alot earlier *grins.

lloll. stef was carrying a biggie bag of present after school. she kind of 'disturbed' by yonglong they all..hees...both ears red red..my heart goes out to you stef...ahaz~
went mac with shanjie and verna after that. stef went home.
and here im now..staring at my belove comp. gon` go for tuition laterr..

oh ya. i forgot to mention something important .
i really seriously need to credit some people cuz they're my faithful blog fans. i didn't realise that there're actually people whose sososo interested in my life and wasting their time reading it when we ain't close at all.

so freakin` hot and stuffy today. i was feeling sticky the whole day. practically no mood for everything..and time seems to pass so slowly. After school still have to stay back for that froggie's lesson. fcuk. and she's like yakking and yakking so i was over at the other side groaning. on mann, can't help it. i was feeling darn hungry.








i'llpraythaturguysarealright-





withlove,
jjen

Ms yeo: you looked cheerful today=D
jjen: huh?...hees..oh really?
Ms yeo: solved ur problems arhh..
jjen: maybe..



i feel alot better now.

went for tuiton just now. god~i've been having tuition almost every alternate days. nevermind. i'll bear with it since this is a crucial year. at least, thats what every adult thinks.
nothing much happens today except that we got our eng oral on. Aggie chan seems kinda bored by the time it was my turn. you should have seen her face man. its so demoralising. well, who cares about her. i'll just say what i've got in my mind. oh ya. i mention about flashers. omfg!

thanks alot guys. im moving on...

gosh..damn tired. just got back. went bugis and bought one monitor and a mouse.
went suntec after that. bought one red puma bumper sling bag and another puma backpack for myself. maybe i'll give that backpack to my sis cuz it might suits her more.


mommy's forever nagging..arghh..fCuk..

i find it kinda hard to smile nowadays. practically nothing perks me up. except for those friends around me..they do brighten my day but..there's something lacking inside..i don't know whats that but just..

everybody asking me to cheer up, take care, don't think too much blahblahblah...well guys, i will. don't worry. thanks for ebing there for me. its surprising that so many people have the 'same thoughts'.


mid yr's in 2 weeks time. im still not prepared for both sci & maths. god bless~







withlove,
jen

mid yr coming and im still failing the most at 3 subs. how come?..god~
somebody pls help....

we knew each other for almost 3 years. i didn't know you doesn't trust me at all. at least that's what i think. i doubt i've ever lied to you before .well, i've got nothing more to say...

just got back from tuition not long ago. felt kinda sick and tired. all cuz of that 2.4 run. moreever, im already in a bad shape.

gon` del away my entry for yesterday. cuz its so so not true. i think, i think too far off already. he's still my bro =D no such things as ignoring or wadevaa..sorry, i jumped to conclusions too fast.

i'm not very sure how this thing is going on. but they seems as if nothing has happened. nevermind. i still can't make out the whole picture of it. still hearing lil bits of things here and there. by the way, if i've said or written anything, i'll surely admit it. it doesn't matter whether it has been del away anot. no matter what, i hope everything will be back to normal asap. we're at least still friends i suppose.


i'd like to credit the following people:
stephh_ thanks for everything.
beka_ never failed to be with me when any shit pops up.
faNg_ you said 'sisters always' right? =x
cheryl_ console me lots. has always been so supportive
& those whom stayed by me. sorry if i left out anyone of your name. but your guys are certainly not forgotten. not to forget, my those dearr blog fans who came and read my blog even tho i don't know him/her/em well. thanks alot. i feel very honoured.



[during tuition]
Ms yeo: are you feeling well?
jjen: oh..yahh
Ms yeo: are you feeling not well?
jjen: umm..no.
Ms yeo: you looked tired.
jjen: huh...oh..just did my 2.4 run today.
Ms yeo: you used to smile alot. always smiling. smile here & there.
jjen: umm...oh.
Ms yeo: wad happened?
jjen: ehh..nothing.



do i looked so tired? probably its the lack of sleep since sunday. people told not to cry anymore. if not can't see my eyes anymore. lol. just wish that everything's gon be over soon.



word for the day -> [Backstabber] : someone who seems to be treating you real good on the surface but talks bad stuffs about you to other people without your knowledge.




withlove,
jjen

there's so much things i wanna say but i can't find anyone to go to. i guess today must be the most motherfCukin` bad day for me or should i said its starting from yesterday onwards.

i got scolded. yeahh, 'bitch'..by who?..okay, its by someone whom i like for so long. can you imagine it? and its like i got scolded for something which i believed i never do. i seriously never backstab anyone before. i only mention to my friends that i don't like/bu shuang that girl.
keep on crying in school today..why?..cuz its really hurts alot to be accused by people you regard as good friends. although i don't know what that girl said but it just shows it all. thats what 'friends' are for..friends don't fake around..
i hate fakers. if there's anything, just tell me straight in the face. don't act as if you don't know anything and act as if ure concern.




withhate,
jen

i've been getting stupid calls nowadays so don't be alarmed or pissed-off if i sound irritated.

im wondering...
why some guys can be so despo.
can't they live without girls?
do girls meant everything to em?
whatever it is, im not interested.
im more interested in waiting for my kfc
gon` be delivered to my house soon...





willwebebacktogetheragain? im always thinking about this but if it really happens, i sincerely hope that nothing moronic will come in our way.

just got back. im tired but came online anway.
tomorrow's history test. gon` memorise everything by heart today.
hees. im going to pass..set...



*grins

i pass my social studies okayy.

that group is getting larger and weirder.

im not sure when this started but i realised that my tears doesn't flows down as easily as it used to. instead, it flows down to my heart.
seriously, it hurts-

i notice something. as long as you put 'freelance model/model' in your friendster profile, you'll have lortsa people adding you..no matter ure nice or not nice looking.

nothing much to blog anyway. was absent from school yesterday. heard that stef, beka, tingg & fang went to find shu en yesterday..they had a nice talk with her i think. nevermind about that. yonglong they all didnt come school today. kinda quiet. yeahh..whole group disappear.
had bio test. guess its quite easy. knew the ans for majority of the qns.well, thats great. =x


we haven't talk for days.

100% trash-

can't take it anymore.
i cried.
yeahh...cry.

yaa..one bye and ure gone forveer.
like wtf???

jackass...i failed physics 8.5/30 . nvm. fCUk care. i can't be bothered. halfway giving up on sub.sci.
went to l.j.s with tingg & fang. stef came and meet us later on. saw that bell bell and yonglong. we gossip about em again. why?..cuz we motherfCukin` dont like that stupid bell =x
tml chem paper. arghh...disgusting dumb subject. i motherfCukin` hate sub.sci.....i wanna skip school tml. *prayinghard



yahh...you guys have just spent your precious time reading this nothing but a motherfCukin` entry. -griNs

went back sch just now. didn't know it was veron's burfday. nways, Happy burfday. lortsa things seems to happened during the weekends.
one motherfcukin` idiot actually smeared half of my face with the burfday cake. omfg. its like so gross-oily...wadeva..i cried instantly. use exactly one bottle of shampoo to wash my hair and i cleanse my face with every facial cleanser i could find in the house.

-shouldn't have went back sch in the first place

i can't imagine what will happen if i continued to chat with him. i'd probably drown in a pool of honey or sugar..
omfg. its my first time having sucha conversation. just picture urself chatting with a guy friend and he keeps praising you everynow and then, using phrases like 'drop-dead gorgeous' ..oh pls...that word use on me?..you must be kidding..lloll. i'll be elated if u say im cute. tho i know im not. =x
okayy. i bet his gurlfriend must have been drowned lortsa times and even sinking deeper compared to me.


still can't believe he compliments me so well.
at least, it makes me happy.
tho i doubt he seriously meant that way.




its good to dream;
keeps you away from the harsh reality.




withlove,
jen

should i present myself in sch tml? if yes, how do i get those history facts into my head by tonight? if no, how do i absent myself on chemistry test too?
arghh...can't believe i actually have trouble memorising this chapter..MAO.ZE.DONG ! seriously, you suck big time.

slack at home. wondering what to study and memorise for history paper tml.
arghh


-scratcheshead

i won't say that i care about you.

oh, i think i left out the part where me, stef and shanjie were sitting and chatting at the mac when we saw 1 pair of couple.
okayy, i shall elaborate on em.
here i go....


this pair were sitting opposite to me. as your know, i don't really like couples behaving sweetly in front of me cuz, i'll get jealous kk..lloll. and this stupid pair were liking on the verge of making out. omfg!. it wouldn't have been worst if the pair looked compatible. the fact was, the gurl's surface area was much much much more larger than the guy's. i couldn't help but kept staring and giggling. they were intimate, in a sense that they cling together and kept giving each other kisses everynow and then. damn..i & stef were like discussing and commenting on em. i believed that guy would have much better choice than choose this girl. yeahh, she gotta those bitchy looks too cuz both of em glance at us too. fats was all i could see. another big huge lump came and join da pair after a while whom i suspect was the gurl's bro.



jen: you know the slide?
stef: uh-huh.
jen: i bet that gurl's speed of sliding down would be alot faster than us.
stef: muahahaha.

-Laughs.


jen: that guy would surely be safe if the tornado comes.
stef: *silence
jen: cuz all that guy needs to do was to cling on to his dearr gurl.
stef: bastard eh you.
(but stef couldn't stop laughing. even more bastard) =x


stef: heyy, we get up and purposely walk behind em so that we can see her fats bulging out.
jen: oh..okokok!



the three of em obviously knew we were laughing at em all along and they turned to stare at us when we walked behind em.


i didn't mean to be crude. just couldn't help it.
just imagine 2 lumps of humongous fats and one normal looking guy sitting together.






-couldn't stop laughing

cip today sucks like hell. can you imagine it? , i actually asked for donations faithfully. i was with stef & tys all along.
after that, took neOprints again. ya, again..took 3 new machines at bugis. satisfied, walk & shop around. went to meet shanjie at j8. lloll. me dozed off at the train.
the triOs went to take picture again, 2 machines. so in total, i & stef took 5 machines. only spent on neoprints actually. looks like i've to put my 'money saving plan' aside. -laughs.
set..gon` buy a new bag and a wallet!

okayy. i'll rewrite the entry which was supposed to be published.


just got back from tuition. met yonglong, les & belle at mac. sit down chit-chit. shall not elaborate what we were talking about. =x


what it takes to build up a friendship? have you guys seriously thought about this issue before?. your must be thinking: 'can get along then stead larhh!'
yeahh, besides that, wad else?
i personally thinks that trust, commitment & compromising is important.
it's not easy for strangers to get together and become friends. lil problems might arise here and then. well, if one doesn't tryna be understanding, the bond between will be a short-lived one. if each compromise with one another, im sure your will be the best of friends.
you need to put in effort to maintain a friendship i believed. smses, phone calls, hanging around, waiting for each other, having lunch etc...you guys may not notice these lil stuffs but it does do wonders.
however, if there's a lack of trust, i don't see the point of staying together as friends. once mutual trust is broken, your can't face each other as if nothing has happen. you'll prolly feel uneasy with each his/her pressence around. therefore, honesty is the best policy.




withlove,
jen

whats the fCukin` hell wrong with me??!!




-rolleyes

had my chinese oral today. MdmHo wasn't as bad as i thought. she smiled at me throughout. she commented that my reading was a lil fast but overall is still quite alright. =x *crossfingers
fang asked me to accompany her to go northpoint buy her stead's prezzie after that. nothing else. that potato's lesson is interesting today. 'wow! first time.' today's topic was on government you see...our class was like communist. -griNs


im just not okay these few days. already feeling very bad then i got this fCukin` bad stomach cramps early in the stupid morning. why can't you understand???
im just uber-disappointed. in you.....

remember, i hate you.

spent around $8 on useless stuffs during garage sale today. bought a bouquet of roses. and a mirror.
took lortsa pic today.




saw lortsa bitches too__

took eng & physics paper today. bye, gon` fail. couldn't care less.
hang with stef, ting & weifang after school.
yeahh. all 'siaO' together.
photo taking freaks.
in bus also take photo.
went northpoint after having meal at mac.
saw yonglong + weijie + vincent + verna + cutegurl(dunnoname).
we did something funny there..
(yeah~lift gon` break down)


-laughs




tml's garage sale. wonder how it would turn out to be.



before i forgot, Gerald called me just now when i was about to reach home. asking me to wait for him chit-chat. yaa. sat at the staircase there chatchat. gerald's moving on good without lily. gon` be attached soon too! =x take care arhh bud. next time then ask you come my house.

any hard-core shopaholics around?
if ure someone who can shop for the whole day without feeling tired,
you might be the one im looking for.
application form below.
fill in your particulars and send/mail it to the add below.

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*chuckles* im just bored larhh.
but do contact me if ure one helluva shopper cuz i need a companion to shop with me one of these days.
cyaa






withlove,
jjen

time passes darn fast today. was late in the morning and the stupid detention only lasted for ard 10mins then that WillyTan ask me go...funny larhh he. =x luckily its not MdmRohana whose the teacher in charge today. if not, i don't know what she'll say if she still remembers the ahem* stuff. she might just call me that nick again in front of all the people. thank god that she's not there.
stef gotta stay back for chi oral today after school so waited for her. went library to help out with the garage sale stuffs. by the way, Garage sale is on Wed. after that met Joanna and sharon in the canteen. went up, saw Leeyee. as usual, chat & chat. Serina came and joined us followed by SuetGek, ChingChing. oh ya!...thanks women, for accompany me. you guys are great (= *griNs
went to n.p with stef. bought some stationaries. went on to l.j.s. omfg! serve by that retard again. sorry, im not being mean here but she really is a retard. she's slow. she lied through her dumb teeth when stef asked her for tartar sauce. i knew it. i knew she wouldn't give it to us cuz we ordered chicken and not fish. that's why i don't even bother asking her for it. but this time, she said 'no tartar sauce left' ..i was like 'wth , can't you come up with a better excuse??!!' yucks. one helluva faker. i hate being served by a retard like her.
yeahh..after meal, gossip. gossip about who?...ahaz..will gossip and talked about anyone including that 2 him* without fail.
okay, tml's physics and eng paper. bye..sonofabitch -laughs

'no. i don't like you. bye bye'

thats what i say to myself every morning.

wonder what da hell happened to my printer. the pic that comes out of it was like..ummm..nevermind.


-turningaway

oh my fCukin` god. im going dumb.

yes..we're getting back together..
ahem*...

wad da fCuken` shit im talking abt???!?!?...nevermind abt that

oh ya! before i forget, Happy Burfdae Yonglong!!!
=x

all the best for wadeva thing you do.
god bless always.
stay healthy and cute.

sorry that i didn't join your guys today. have fun

gotta a bad day yesterday..well, who cares. nevermind abt it.


today went to buy -> 1) red computer table
2) pink squarish table
3) orangy-red carpet
4) pink rubbish bin
5) mirror

somehow, my room still looks kinda empty.


i appreciate that you still bother and attempt to call and msg me. thanks alot for everything you've done. im touched. really..

i may need to see a shrink very soon.

don't sms or call me

__i just throw away my phone