2006's coming in around 2 hrs time. Everything gon have a beautiful new start? Certainly hope so.

Anyway, I found that girls are more anti-social compared to guys. They're just not as friendly[no offence]...Guys, tho they're helpful and approachable mammals, but not altruistic at all. Get what i mean?


And and and, I wanna say how things got so f` up for me. On the 29th, my destination was Tampines mall. So, I had to go to the bus-stop outside Northpoint for the 25mins bus ride. However, i got myself waiting for the MRT train. I obsolutely have nuts idea what i was doing. Then, I got out of Yishun station and wasted 45cents. The correct place i should go to was the bus-stop outside Northpoint right? Somehow, i walked to the interchange instead. omffg. I still can jolly well walked right to the end wondering where was 969 when 969 only exist at the bus- stop outside Northpoint. In conclusion, I wasted a good 20mins walking round and round. Just too occupied with something else.









Well, Im still standing down here waiting and wondering.
I'll be there.

Since 28th, I hasn't been sleeping well. Even the slightest stir could wake me up. Tossing and turning was part of the mundane routine. Most of the time, I could only managed to sleep at around 6-7+am. But well, Had to wake up not long after to drag myself to work. Working's good. At least, it keeps me from drifting and wondering too far off which is somewhat negative to both physically and mentally.

Was sort of reprimanded by a toys'r'us staff member. Again, she's an old one.

'Why are you reading a book? Your boss paid you to promote and sell items. Not to read books'

The tone and expression used was very much like Goh.L.L, my sec sch maths HOD.

'Oh. There wasn't any customers. So i thought...'

'No customers? As a promoter, you should approach em.'

'Okay then...alright.'


And so, i obediently put away my book. Was halfway through Dave Pelzer when this dumb auntie caught me. Being emotionally drained, I do have anymore energy to argue with her. Don't find the need also.




So how? what's now? Has everything ended?
I thought all was lost.
Until that tiny glimpse of hope surfaced again this afternoon.
There's only a few once faith left.
So tell me we'll be able to make it.

You'll be away.
Take truckloads of care during your stay there.





I supposed what you're doing are just tryna make yourself feel better. I don't think i need that. If its otherwise, i'd be really glad.

When I play that sweet old song, my mind just swims back to you.



I'd blog inconsistently from now on. I've got nothing much to blog about anyway. You guys certainly don't owe me anything. I don't expect anything from your either. So, shall save your from those whinings. Be grateful.

emptiness fill. So much so that it's gon topple any moment.



halleh halleh-lujah

Gon` be fine i supposed. ((=


Anyway, pay day coming soon.
- clap clap





I was told that someone close gon` be away. Looks like its kinda true. However, something positive and negative will come into the picture. Sort of positive for me and negative for both. I'll ignore it. Won't do anything to jeopardize the way it is now.

The lonely and dark route to my house at night is terrifying. You just feel something's not friendly lurking around there, waiting to pounce on you any moment. You lil heart started pumping faster. Your pace too, becomes alot quicker. That's the result of returning home late and not having any company at all. god bless.


Just returned from work. Legs feel wobbly after 11 hrs of standing. Stomach's drowning in acid after the absence of lunch and dinner. Im seeing stars and angels...blablabla. Shall endure through. Pay day's aproaching nearer and nearer.









-And i will love you baby, always.

Its out of stock. That Chicken lil plush. Toys'R'Us sell the not-so-big one but its out of stock. Saw the very jumbo one online. I dont have paypal acc and its too, out of stock. How dumb.

Never.
Those in line, wait. I'm in no rush.
Stay true, To my bf ((=


-HAHA




oh. Before i even forget, THANKS FOR THE SIZE7 SLIPPERS X'MAS PREZZIE. You know who you're, pig.
((:*

I thought i saw you smile but, somehow or rather, It was not from within. Certain things are strained. Doesn't feel the same like before. Seems kinda weird to be exact. A wee bit of awkward included too. Everything's just unpredictable. Perhaps you're not sure what I'm thinking or I don't know what you're up to. Coincidentally, both falls into the guessing game. Was abit taken aback at the change of attitude. Those little stuffs and thoughts that go along the way. I certainly do sense it. Well, I'm not into it. Never. Guessing gon` be tired. Both will be drained out eventually. I'm working on my part. Am trying hard. Tho it doesn't sound convincing enough but i really am. Heavy feeling. Hard to reverse.
stay true.






MERRY CHRISTMAS.

Hasn't been blogging consistently this few days due to work. The crowd at Forum's good but quite a number of customers didn't come back with their receipts. Yesterday was at Tampines. Truckloads of people buying christmas prezzie for kids. Where's mine? lmao. This promoter job can be quite interesting actually. But well, I had a hard time dealing with the kids there. They're always so curious about everything and started shooting me with dumb questions which caught me off guard. -slaps head.

toddler 1 : [ jie jie, why this slime so sticky one?]
Me: [ huh?!? oh..cus there's a chemical inside that makes it feel sticky.]
toddler 2 : [ jie jie, how come this thing is white colour? ]
toddler 2 again : [ what will happened if i put it inside my mouth? ]
Me : [ I'm sure you won't put it inside the mouth right? ]


But still, she didn't give up and kept bombarding me with silly questions. I so wanted to tell her that if you put it inside your mouth, you swallowed it and then a few hours later, you can ownself explore the aftermath inside the toilet. LMAO.
Those kids i saw were all oh-so-angelic. Real innocent mammals. Its a pity that they'll be slowly corrupted as they grow up when evil thoughts assimilate into their minds. ))=


Forget it. Today's christmas eve. Plans anyone? Bet Sentosa, Orchard and pubs gon` be so sardine packed.

((:*

King Kong's fantabulous. Went to watch it just now. I'd give it 100 hearts. *thumbs up. Started to tear at the scene where King Kong battled the dinosaurs. And i was like 'yucks...yucks...' at those gigantic crawlies and leeches. Makes my hair stand. Uber-touching scenes like the part where King Kong chase after Naomi when she was about to leave Skull Island. That damn director, Carl [wadever] smashed a bottle of chloroform onto KK. The facial expressions exchanged between em when KK was on the verge of knocking out, were enough to make me cry for 5 mins. omg. Shall skipped majority of the details. Too long to be typed out.lazy. However, the ending really did make me teared like hell. Why must King Kong die? Horrible. Can't it be sent back to Skull Island? Its saddening to see King Kong fall and go. Awwww~ This shouldn't be the way. Heart-wrenching. ))= I wanna watch again.



Guys, I've got a job. LOL. Will be working thurs, fri and sat @ orchard. Bless me aight.
((:*

Watched [The Promise] at Lido just now. Thought it's going to be great and made me go 'woah...wow..etc' But well, abit boring. Nic sounded so gay-ish. He should be suave, macho and all. Disappointment. Cecilia, managed to seduce every guy in the movie. LOL. Oh..Lets not forget that handsome slave. He's a famous korean actor. Hell of a dream guy larh...Jump down the cliff for Cecilia. And and and, the director must have fantasize alot. Hell lot. Everything's 10000x exaggerated. lmao. Fake. Not to forget, I got my whole feet soaked with Mountain dew by the end of the movie. Special thanks to a clumsy pig. Right? , leonard...




Was blog-hopping. Hop hop hop. Got the shock of the week. I saw my baobei friend. Nevermind abt that. Deepest condolence.
Whats a twit? Just a character fabricated by Roald Dahl am i right? Read that twit book by him before. Nice one. Damn entertaining. ((= okay. Shall blog abt this issue some other time.


Back to what i was saying...I saw a comment. Horrible comment, when i'm hopping around.

'Poly students ARE stupid.'

wtf?!?!? poly students are stupid. Whats the definition of stupid uh? Can't believe there're actually people who're so fuckin` stuck up and made that statement. I was thinking of going poly you know...omg. Whoever label poly students stupid must be a PHD then i supposed.
Imbecile.



-slaps head.

!@#$%^&* FUCK YOU.



Met a motherfuckin` old moronic man just now. Mommy, sis and I went to 800+ to have our lunch. This particular filthy fuckin` old man went over and sit with us when mommy went to order food. He moved his disgusting bag and beer over. Obviously, he's drunk. So, i kindly told him that there's someone sitting there. He kinda get fuckin` impatient saying, ' wo zhuo yi xia jiu zhou la ! '
I too, get pissed off. ' you ren zhuo de larh !!!'
Then then...that cb old man raised his voice at me. ' wo jiang wo zhuo yi xia jiu zhou !!!!!!!!!'
' Shen jing bing' was all i could say. After all, its in the public and he's an elderly. If i scold him, I'll be labelled as the sinner. Further more, he's drunk. Half-drunk to be exact. Arghhh...

The auntie from the next table looked at me helplessly. knn. you're in the wrong first and you motherfuckinly shout at me. Old big fuck?!?!? Fancy getting drunk in early afternoon. Shameless. Mommy shot me a blur look when she returned and i returned her a 'black' face. She roughly can guess what's wrong. I feel like slapping him with my chicken curry. Well, managed to keep cool and not argued with him. You people should have seen how he glared at me. Like going to take the glass bottle and smash my head anytime. Don't forget, He's drunk. If he really lose his mind and hit me right on the head with that glass bottle, die ah..Fuckin` hell. Say what sit awhile. knn. I finished my lunch already he still haven't finished his glass of beer. Morever, he fuckinly order another bottle. Horrendous disgusting old man. Share the same table with him also lose face. Idiotic old dumb man can't hold liquor well then don't drink larh...see you this kinda fuckin` cb face sure die damn early. Most prolly die of liver or stomach cancer. Just my luck to run into this kinda dumbell.

Last but not least, go fuckin` hell eat shit.
-poo poo

Learn to be comfortable with silence.

Freelance can be found everywhere on the street. No big fuck.

I'm interested in something suddenly. yup. Shall not tell you guys first. Have been reading up and will start to get my hands on soon. ((:*
just wait and see. -chuckles

Why's everybody working?

omg.

The crowd at Orchard is kinda overwhelming. Didn't spend much today. Bought a skirt and a pair of purplish cartoon-looking puma shoe. LOL.

anyways...shall busy myself with s o m e t h i n g. yupyup.


((:*

loveee*~

Happy happy trip to Batam for beka.
(:*


anyway, dad's coming back today too

zai shuo wo ai ni,
ke nen ni ye bu hui ting.

jiu rang hui yi yong yuan,
ting zai na li.

epitome of love

That's it. Was feeling horribly sick yesterday night. It was suffocating. Got out of bed several times thinking that i'm gon` puke but majority were false alarm. Only twice that i really did throw up. Horrendous. That suction force within is killing me. Whatever it is, I felt a million times better after throwing up. Til now, i haven't grab a bite yet. Surprising uh? No appetite. Skipped yesterday's dinner and this afternoon's lunch. I'm not hungry anyway.
Mom called just now. She asked to give up on the banquet job cus it's gon` be tiring. NOt to mention, have to work til late hours in the night. Well, we'll see about it then...

Its not the same. Saddening isn't it? I thought and i assume there's some similar traits in them. But still, both are different. Forget it. My stomach has been giving me problems lately. So freakingly disturbing. So much so that i feel like drowning it with acid.
Gon` start work soon on saturday. Obviously not prepared yet. Til now, That goddamn Metro still hasn't get back to me yet. Great. Just what i wanted. (:*
Happened to bump into ah bee on my way back home just now. So long didn't see him. lol. stil the same. And so, we just walked home together...



Happy or not, you and me still have to get on with it.

know why?

cus its abt rainbows!


yup. rainbows.



-LMAO








Those in line, pls wait. I'm in no rush. Just began my fun.
(:*
don't wanna settle down.

For a moment, i thought im gon` be blind. My left eye hurts so much that its almost killing me. Was feeling alright initially but things start to go wrong on the way to Orchard with Steph. It was uncomfortable at first. However, it later became so miserable throughout that my left eye was kinda swollen and red. Omfg. Tho the tear duct kept releasing tears but it was of no help. Because of the damn eye, i went home early. Sickening... til now, still hurts. Hurts even more when i rinse my eye with water. goddamn hell. yucks.


hungry. waiting patiently for my dinner. waiting.waiting.waiting.




Interview again. This time round, its at Metro. Eeeeshh..need to work 6 days per week. The salary was only $800++. Have to work on Christmas eve too. Start work immediately on the 3rd day of chinese new year. Sounds pathetic uh? Its indeed pathetic. Perhaps...yup...consider again. LOL

Grandpa wish to go Malaysia. yup. Heard that he's terribly sick. Horribly sick. So being a nice and good granddaughter, i've decided to accompany him (tho its kinda against my wish). Mommy commented that i'm cold-blooded. yup. She's uber sad about her dad larh... Its going to be hard for grandpa and the rest of the family. Everybody gon` go through a rough patch.





i'll be back before wed.




cus,
i h a t e malaysia.


and,
i'll m i s s my baby and friends.





-amen

Somehow, everything's happening fast. I mean, for the past 1 month, everything changes. People who're close. Or should i say people who used to be close but not anymore. It puzzles me how easily certain people get away. Alright. Emo ride's over. Helps me to see who's truly genuine and who's putting on a fake front. Well, no use reminiscing. Its a bright day ahead.
To those who care, you know who you guys are. I'm glad and grateful.
I thought i wasn't ready. I thought i wasn't in the right state. I thought its still not in the right frequency yet. However, i decided to try. Great isn't it? I admit some bits of ?? still do hang here and there. Who cares. Think back, its actually kinda cute and funny. What matters most is, I'm happy right now. Sleeping, eating and going out. My mundane routine. No life. I know. Gimme a break people. Shall pack every previous shit away and recharge. Till then, LOL

oh ya bex, congrats babe (:*
you've officially got a job.
not like me( steph too), who's rotting away.
-HAHA


not to forget, get well soon
[fang]
*amen





Loveeee~*

Well, i've got a job. working at Oriental hotel...banquet. It's gon` be tired.
yup. tired.