Been feeling good these few days. Nothing could be better. Watched 'Cello' today. Its kinda dumb show. I'd give it 2 out of 5 kisses. yup. After that, walked around Orchard for awhile. Had to show a mountain turtle where Paragon, Far east etc...went papaya hunting at the same time. HAHA-
Had dinner with Lesner, his lil bro, his mom, Leo and yucong.
yup. I spent my precious day just like that.



Off to study.

I'll be there for you.
These five words i swear to you.

Im downright guilty. Supposed to study all day. Well, had sci tuition early in the morning but we slack-ed as usual cuz i thought...since i'll be meeting yucong and ziyong for group study in the afternoon. So, no harm slacking alil. Hur hur...so we girls, spent the few hours talking about ghost stories. Lmao. As i said, i'll be meeting the guys in the afternoon. We did study. yup. Out of the 2 hrs there, i prolly studied only around 20 mins. -slapshead. Thanks to Yucong, if not gon` be lesser than 20mins. ((= sorry that i disturbed and distracted him. Nuff said. I'll continue with the movie i watched today. Doom. Nice one larh. I got freaked out by a couple of scenes. HAHA- Eyes are constantly closed when those monsters jumped out. Im proud to say that nothing happened to the person who watch the movie with me. Yup. No injuries, no wet pants or wadsoever =D great uh? By the way, Im feeling good so far. Thanks to all my friends. You guys are great.
*thumbs up












love,
jjen

Accompany mom to OCBC centre early in the morning. Went Suntec after that...bought a pair of heels, earrings..blablabla. Off to meet up with Fang and Bex. Supposed to study. But well, we ended up slacking instead. Nevermind. Shall study at home next time before coming out. Everybody's so discouraging. Alright. Im the dumb one.

Went school at around 10++ am today. The school is like so empty. Omg. Did some catching up with my bro, Ziyong. He update me with his current stuffs and i updated him mine. ((=
Life's full of hiccups and is certainly unpredictable. Nuff said.




I don't wanna smile anymore. Im getting so sick and tired.
HAHA-

He got his tattoo done today. Suppose to tag along but meet up with Steph instead. Went J8 to get our hp accessories.
Guess what? we went alil lil crazy and start taking pictures. lol.



didn't edit this. really...it just turns out to be like that.
shall upload the rest some other time.. ((=






hmmm. got the sudden craving for alcohol. oh no...not again. I won't attempt to spoil my beautiful liver.

Mom, I know you're tired. So am i. We're all gon` go through this shit together. Moments ago, both of ur were crying. This is the first time i broke down ever since i learnt that grandpa was sick. yup. Seriously sick. Everybody's worried. Afraid that grandpa might not be able to pull through this and the fact that our heart ache each time we see him. I know he has the right to know what's happening but well, we all just couldn't bear to break the news to him. Grandpa prolly gon` be so upset and all and refuse to receive any proper treatment. He might think that he's a burden to all of us. I already have the taste of losing my love ones. Enough.


I know the ride is going to be tough. You people gon` tell me, ' Stay brave and stand tall. Death's part and parcel of life. There's still a long journey ahead.'















love,
jjen

I SHALL STOP PROCRASTINATING.



((=

Had so much trouble waking up in the morning today. Mom has to constantly knock on the door and trying frantically to get my attention. Slept at around 4++am yesterday night you see...all thanks to tim. We were gossipping a lil about those yaya papayas. lmao..

Went J's hse to find my boy in the early afternoon. Was kinda freaked out by two malay guys on the bus. These 2 malay guys, whom i've no idea who they were, keep calling my name when i boarded the bus. Omfg. They even know my surname k.. ' Jen Yap!!!......jenny yap...jen yap..' yadayada. They just keep calling and calling. I was like wth...How on earth do they know my name. damn...


Afterwhich, off we head to Sun plaza for movie. Bear, Lin, Jason, me and him all wanted to watch 'The Wig'..oh well, its N16 and Lin couldn't watch it. We were loitering around the counter area. In the end, we bought tix for 'Goal', thinking that we'll just sneak inside the other theatre. HAHA- those damn Eng Wah staffs came to check on us and asked us to leave the theatre. No choice, we guai guai watch 'Goal'. The movie was really boring initially and i fell asleep. However, the last part was quite nice actually. ((=



My eye lids feel so heavy. I need to seriously replenish my beauty sleep.











love,
jjen

Stayed at home the whole day. How nice. Bex got her tattoo finally and she's some sort of urging me get one too. Hmmm...im still considering. It's painful you know. Omg. Imagine those needles piercing through your skin. Somehow, a new tattoo trend has started. Linda got one butterfly, Laiting and Bex have done it. I supposed they're going for more if im not wrong. *clapclap. ((=
Ask me pierce the ear already hesitating. Tattoo? i prolly take a couple of years to decide. Im scare of pain larh.

I treat you as a friend initially but you think too far off and got carried away. Please stop your monkey business. I'll appreciate if you don't show yourself in front of me anymore. If you come and fetched me again from my tuition, i'll be so terrified that i'll prolly scream my head off right in front of your-very-bloody-face. Now, that isn't very nice you see...so in conclusion, i won't accept any trash from you.











love,
jjen

I forgot to blog about my pract.


It just slipped out of my mind whether to report by 7.15 or 7.45am. Called von in the morning and she told me its 7.30.
Timothy msg and gave me a call on that morning too, just to make sure i woke up. Thanks uh..realised i sounded stupid cause i said, ' you have pract too right?'
how dumb. lol.


I did my chem first. That pair of moronic goggles kept slipping off from my face. My conclusion was lead nitrate. Majority wrote either lead nitrate or aluminium nitrate. Only a couple wrote zinc nitrate. After thye pract, heard that zinc nitrate was the correct answer. Nevermind about that. Physics was kinda easier than i expected. Thought they gon` give us electricity and all but didn't.

Was quarantined in the music room for hours. Omg. i ate lollipops, potato chips blablabla...and, of cuz, gossipped alil. ((=


The worst part was, Vanan made those people who brought their hp, cleaned the music room before they can leave. uh-huh..I was one of em.
wth. There were shitloads of rubbish left behind. Sweet wrappings, used tissues, empty bottles etc. And, I HAVE TO CLEAN THEM.





*amen

Went Bugis with Fang today. She had to buy something for her boyfriend. Well, She shopped for hers instead and i've to constantly remind her to buy something for Weijun(Fang's bf). In the end, Fang bought a top for weijun with my financial aid. Know why? told you guys earlier that she shopped for her own stuffs right?...lol.
afterwhich, We headed to Bugis street because i wanted to buy some hp accessories. Hurhur...There's these 3 guys who followed us all the way from Parco to Bugis street. Eeeeyurr. We soon forgotten all about these 3 sickos and carry on shopping around. I bought a pair of ear studs and a lil voodoo doll. Wanted to buy more studs but didn't. Already have alot at home you see...not to forget, i did something bad there. Shall not mention about it. As i was saying, that 3 sickos were following us...Fang told me what she heard in their conversation after she nudged me to go somewhere else. Thus, we managed to shake em off. ((=
Did i mention that a tourist from Thailand took picture with me while we were excaping from the sickos? HAHA-

*Thai pointing to a lady holding cam.
*I thought she wanna ask me to take a pic of em.

me: 'Huh???'
Thai: 'I from Thailand. take picture'
me: 'huh?? oh..okay..'

I reckoned that i must looked horrible in the picture. I was so blur at that time. Omg...
-slaps head.




We got bored very soon so decided to head back to yishun. and and and, Fang suggested to take bus. After feeling sick and tired of waiting for 851, we took 960 which travels straight to Woodlands. I amost puke on the way back. Shopped around Causeway point while waiting for Fang's cousin to drive us back. Wait and wait. Have to wait again when the cousin had something on...wait and wait in the car...wait wait wait wait. arghh...
oh ya! something shitty happened on the way back. Luckily nothing major. If not, ....i prolly won't get to blog now...lol.




alright. I've slack-ed for one whole week. Shall get back to my studies now.

The number of people who turned up in school was horrendous. I meant for my class. 4 girls and 10 boys. How nice. Mdm K was kinda disappointed i supposed. She went calling at every single male and female to attend school. In the end, only Marcus, Zhahirah and Aqilah came. So the attendence of the day was upgrade to 17 if i never remember wrongly. Was slacking the whole day. yup. Sleep. After school went causeway with Lincoln, Steph and fat boy. Saw him, Linda, Jason, Khim ghee and Jianwen at the mrt station. Its been like around 3 days since i last saw him. That Steph and Lincoln damn idiotic. Disturb and make fun until i don't even dare to talk to fat boy. dumb. Tml's comb.sci pract. Omg...i prolly gon` break those test-tubes again.












Sometimes,
i just feel like walking away

I've realised that blogs have become another outlet of entertainment.










amen-

Its never good to bottle up your feelings and keep everything to yourself cause its really bad for health. Wasn't feeling good for the past 2 weeks. I just show my foul attitude to the people around. I apologise. I know i should have just stayed at home instead of going out and displaying my 'black' face but well, i need company so that i won't think too far off. Be thankful for the fact that i've learnt to be dependent on myself. You people don't see me whining everywhere i go don't you? Thus, I swallowed everything down my stomach. If there's anyone who deprived me of showing my very 'black' face, i'd kill him/her. Its bad enough to have so many stuffs crashing down when you have to cope with all the stress and problems. The arrival of all these truckloads of shit now ain't very right. Anyone out there with the key to the solutions?

Was reminiscing about the past, and i teared.
The feelings that once felt so true.
You were never there but still,
I stayed and never walk away.
Till now,
I had to jog or maybe run to keep up with you.
You're just too fast and never seem to stop for me.
There may be other paths.
Paths which are less bumpy and alil more smooth-sailing.
But still, I hold on.
Perhaps there'll be this day where we lost track of each other.
I'm not sure whether you'll turn back to look for me.
But i definitely will.
Because, I love you.

















I don't know where you're going,
And i don't know why.

my phone feels so empty. Almost weightless now. Beanbean and zhuzhu are gone. Left mick and rabbit to fend for themselves. ))= .Will start introducing new friends to them asap.




Im excited. for wad? cuz the majors are coming in 2 weeks time and i haven't started on my sciences yet. I excited about how im gon` fumble and breakdown on that day. 2 weeks and im supposed to cover everything about chem and physics. Inhuman. My brain cells are dying. Obviously, some facts have to be deleted before new ones can start loading in...
Ms Yeo ( my maths tutor) keep showing me the calendar. So much so that i have nothing to blog about except the majors. omfg. just stfu.



got drenched while going home. no umbrella.













The doubts are still there.

just got back.

hang around at J's hse with linda, bear, jason and him.
and, i lost something on my way to J's hse.
the beanbean bear and zhuzhu.
))=
tried to go back and find but failed. most prolly dropped it inside the the stupid bus.
awww~ so sad can...

afterwhich, accompany lin to have her tattoo done. I almost fell asleep while waiting.
butterflybutterflybutterfly on her back.
she managed to endure the pain.
*clapclap.



the pain is really driving me nuts i tell you....
Eeeeyurr...



gon` watch '3 lil bear' tonight.







love,
jen

gon` be alone at home over the weekends AGAIN. well, im used to it actually.
and and and, i'll prolly end up getting so lazy to get out of my bed. meaning, skipping of meals. What to do? no one is around...and, im lazy.



mwa-

everything seems like a roller coaster.



now i know who viewed my profile. no more sneeking around.
HAHA-

i wanna watch The Wig.





The same kinda thing is repeating all over again. Won't bother to mention it. i'll prolly pick myself up and start on my intensive revision. Just sick and tired of everything.
Im not quite sure where im going now. All the work done seems to be taken for granted. Superficial? if you ask me, i'd pause for a few seconds and then try to ans but i know i'll end up being speechless. And and and, i felt so cold alright. Don't bother asking if im alright cause im obviously not okay.









im not crazy
just alil unwell.

Thanks to you people for the constant reminder that im gon` die in 2 weeks time. The majors are approaching real fast. seriously, im not prepared at all. My sci are rotting away.
i'll bid goodbye to my beauty sleep.



oh, before i forget, met a downright f***ass guy today. damn. He suck alright. never seen such a bitch like him before. talk bad and scolded the gf in front of outsiders when the girl is not around. Beat his gf...wad else? a guy like him with no mannerism and poise ought to be thrown into the sea and eaten alive by the shark. oh no, the shark prolly gon` suffer from indigestion. i truly pity his gf. wonder how she managed to endure this horrendous bf of hers. *god bless.




amen.





love,
jen

school is boring as usual.

after dismissal, he came and meet me together with linda and jason.
went ljs. including bex, steph and fang.
just sit around ...

*yawns...



Jason house.
watched ' Ghost train'...' alOtlikelove'.
fell alseep half way.
lol.



nothing much happened larh...

and,

i HATE pms.
its KILLING me.
damn..

shouldn't be having second thoughts.

but,

sometimes i really wonder...

perhaps,

certain things are just not meant to be.

im scared-

life's certainly not easy and fun now.
especially when there's bumps everynow and then...

it was only this morning that i decided to go school. If not, steph alone very pathetic.lol. anyways, my leg doesn't hurt anymore, so why not?
as usual, slept through all lessons. that Kumari had to wake me up twice. at least, i turned up for school right..majority of my classmates were absent. Lost the momentum to study recently. so even if im wide awake, most prolly keeping myself busy by disturbing my friends. ((= pardon me for the lil touch of insanity. couldn't help it larh...
for the following week, i doubt i'll be present in school everyday. might as well study at home or go for tuitions. go school also cuz of friends or see my boy =DD



steph wasn't very happy today. something bad just happened to her idiot. ))=
but well, everything should be fine now i supposed.


went to bex house after school today. watched ' Land of the Dead'. goddamn hell. it was so gross can.. imagine those zombies tearing ur ass and boobs apart and you become their delicious meal. fcukin` hell.
Eeeeyurrr...
yucks.
i'd prolly cry to death or commit suicide if the world is infested with zombies.

afterwhich, meet him and linda under his blk.
went timezone.
stone there.
lol.



since he going Jason's house, i might as well go find my sisters...
yup. something dumb happened again.
a grp of girls was said to delibrately knocked onto fang's sis.
hurhur...
of cuz, fang went to hunt for that grp of girls.
some sort of confronted em.
HAHA-
the girls talked halfway and walked away.
and and and, fang wasn't happy abt the way the 'negotiation' ended.
wonder how's everything now..
hmmm..


wonder whats wrong. always got probs at fast food outlets.
example....mac, ljs....pizzahut.
ljs should be the most popular i think...


nonono. in case you people are wondering, this is certainly not an act of gangsterism alright.
no doubts about that.


and i promise that i won't be using any vulgarities from now on. prolly due to the recent stress.
hahas..












love,
jen

im going nuts. yvonne and cheryl prolly can't survive from my constant disturbances. slept through almost all lessons today. imagine you sleep til ur neck hurts. was so frigginly bored can...the sight of books and teachers made me sleep.

i reckon that 061005 ain't a very lucky day for me.

know why?

i sleep til my neck hurts.
i walked out of the toilet and sprained my left leg.
and now, my leg kinda feel so wobbly.
feel like crying and whining. Everything's just not well.
horrendously not well.



and now, im deciding whether to attend school tml.




and and and...my concentration span are slowly dying away.



another thing,
i dislike the idea of strangers adding me in msn.




-pardon me for my bad attitude today.




love,
jen

I DON'T FEEL LIKE ATTENDING SCHOOL TML.




-rubbing the damn stupid eye.










guy's fav qns : ' are you attached?'

..so what if im attached?
..so what if im unattached?
its none of ur monkey business anyway.


















and im starting to miss you already.

somehow, she's like impervious to what we have been saying about her.
act dumb or what?!?!






after school,
me, steph, bex and fang had our lunch at mac.

got a trouble there,
bex and fang eventually got themselves involved.
me n steph were kind of bored down there.
about that guy,
well...
He's pathetic larh. really..
imagine a 17 yr old GUY kena scolded by a few 16 yr old GIRLS,
IN FRONT OF A FEW GROUPS OF PEOPLE.
and its a public place somemore...outside mac.
lol.

the worst thing is, bex pour 2 cups of water directly on the guy's head in front of everyone.
you guys should see it...
know whats that guy's reaction?
nay...
he just kept his mouth shut and said nothing.
how useless..
wad a disgrace to the male species.


finally, everything was settle.
that poor guy have to apologise to every single one who's present at the scene.
cause he wasted everybody's precious time you see...

' sorry lincoln, sorry jen, sorry steph, sorry weifang, sorry bex....blablablablabla' & lots more.

lol.
amusing.






By the way, i got back my results slip for prelims.

L1R4 =22
L1R5 =30

goddamn hell...






early in the morning went to buy lollipops for him.
ain't i great?
((=










love,
jjen

Im flabbergasted by how she managed to do it.
i don't know. no idea also.
kinda turn off you see...

Eeeeyurrr...
yucksyucksyucksyucksyucks.







the four of us started a diary kind of thing.
steph.ex.fang and me.
its the last yr you see...

fang almost kill me when i was about to let wj see the diary.
lol.
sorry uh sis..
(=








love,
jen

certain things just happened when you least expect them to...






much love,
jjen
=DD

to KY,
sorry if you feel offended that i edited your blogskin. just like that white and simple background. thats why...






just got back.
bored.



anyway, my brain cells are dying on me.
*god bless