Paris Hilton is not stupid... kinda.
I have had numerous requests to write about the remarkable stupidity of one Miss Paris Hilton. Yes, I do agree that the bitch does some tremendously moronic things (dating the notoriously sketchy Rick Solomon comes to mind) but I must say, that I am a fan of Paris. I personally think it's fucking great that she's famous just because she knows how to spend money. A woman after my own heart. If I were the kind of person who valued substance over style I'd likely be singing a different tune, but lets face it, she is fierce and that is what really matters. What I especially love about Paris is that everytime a sex tape is released or a Sidekick hacked or whateverthefuck, she is practically unphased. As long as she can still pose for a camera and make pouty faces or stare at herself in the mirror, she's a-okay. And that is, I think, the true allure of Paris Hilton: She's so absurd and narcissistic and wrapped up in her own pink colored, candy scented, diamond encrusted world that it's almost cute. Almost.
I also love PH because we both subscribe to the same school of thought: even if people are talking shit about you, it's better than them not talking about you at all. And really, if you were worth eleventy billion dollars would you give a fuck what people thought about you? Not likely. I'm sure many people reading this will say "well look you dumb bitch, you can apply this same thought to Beyonce, why do you hate her? Paris has fake hair too, why didn't you comment on that. you're fat and ugly die die die" and so on. And my answer is this: Paris Hilton, for all her narcissism, does not claim to be anything other than what she is - An attention whore with a whole lot of $$$ to burn. She accepts it, she deals, she lives, she spends. She may pretend to be "singer" or an "actress", but it's not like she's doing this shit to make a living. It's just something to do. Monday - jetset to Milan, buy clothes. Tuesday - cut album. Wednesday - stand in front of movie camera and pretend to be scared. Thursday - buy shoes.....
Paris put tiny dogs on the map. No one, besides rich old ladies in Milan, carried little dogs in bags and shit and now EVERYONE has a knockoff Tinkerbell. I'm sure she probably earned Tmobile millions in revenue from Sidekick sales. She's a force of nature, and she had absolutely no talents whatsoever. That's hot.
I will now brace myself for the barage of hate.


above is an extract of what i read just now. from someone's blog. well, i totally agree

cry c r y c r y

everytime also cry..stupid silly dumb moronic idiot.

everything's falling apart

finally. the 'don't call what' man came and fix the telephone line in my room today. so here im.

nothing much happened these few days. its just that Verna cry. yeap, girls problems. and ahem*...hmmm, something else more horrible.
just took my s.s class test today. its not that difficult. hope i pass this time. godbless =x

somehow, im having problems expressing myself..ermm, how do i phrase it?..okay..lets put it this way. I get annoyed and agitated easily. pulling a black face or fake smile everyday..so much so that i just feel so......wadeva...argghh
and...i hate the way my life is now. i wanna go away. get out of here....get out of the house. everything sucks..who knows? im having trouble tryna live inside a freaking fCUken` house. i hate it there..perhaps be like fang?? runaway from home?! most probably i'll be better off outside..the most, i go work to support myself.

you think i wanna depend on you ar?
if i got money, wad for i still ask from you?
you think i like living with you zit?
you think i like seeing your face everyday zit?
cuz now im still a kid, that's why have to stick with you. no choice.
you think i like you very much zit?
i can't be bothered to giva a shit about you.
i'll just shut myself in the room immediately after i got home,
so that i won't have to face your..
family?...nah..who cares abt that.
im moving out soon.
trust me.
and i won't miss your..
i'll be independent.

-downright pissed-off

i just thrown away one b i g bottle of hearts and stars..or should i say is 1/2 a b i g bottle. this glass bottle nearly goes up to my knee. before that, i also thrown away the wallet which i bought sometime ago. to be exact, i threw it away on the day we break. but i kept the bottle half filled with hearts and stars. for wad?? i don't know.. just couldn't bearto throw it away. after all, its my hard work. wadeva it is, i've got rid of everything just now. everything i did for you. i've stopped making those stupid stars and hearts eva since we broke up. stuffed in my cupboard.
this the second time i made such things for guys. lloll. i still remembered the first time i made for *him. asked my friends to teach me how to get started. god..i really got a hard time trying to get it right. i stayed up throughout the night to get it done. not satisfied, do again..anyway, i admitted that the stars were really ugly. but hey, its really my hard work okay. imagine you yourself running after those stars the whole night and getting ur fingers hurt..especially when the straws are darn freaking` hard.[those who know me should understand what the 'chasing star' thingy is all about].


its all over now.
i wouldn't want to do those things again
its too dumb and silly
buying something from a shop is more..
p r a c t i c a l







Im tired. gimme a break





withlove,
jen

bug off
bug off
bug off
bug off
bug off
bug off
bug off
bug off

how i wished i've not known that two stupid guys before..

do i really look as if i've got a bad night yesterday?


*Ms Yeo: 'oh..jenny, you look so tired. you didn't sleep well is it?. or did you cry?..what happened??'
Jenn: 'huh?...oh..umm..nothing.. just lack of sleep. yah '


imreallyhavingahardtime.
idon'tneedanyonetounderstand,
cuzidon'tunderstanditmyself.

everything sucks.
im not gon` be so dumb and silly forever.
lets wake up jen....

yeahh..came to blog. cuz i felt that i've got lortsa things to say. but somehow, i've difficulty phrasing and typing it down. didn't sleep well yesterday night. kepp turning and tossing on the bed. decided not to wear contacts today. well, how to wear it if my eyes are swollen and look smaller than it already is??? think abt it...



*on the phone with you yesterday night. no idea why you sms me right away after coming back when ure not supposed to? why do you wanna make me talk about him? why ask me to be your girlfriend when you told me that you like your 'wondergirl' ? there's just too much things i wanna ask...

you talk about how great she was the day before. then you talk about her last night. you said you like her. and when you ask me for ans, i reply :' i don't find the need to.'
there's a couple of reasons why i said it. i shan't mention it here but the one above is definitely one of them. why still ask when you're oh-so-happy with your wondergirl? -rolleyes
im crying when chatting with you. just deny it cuz i don't wanna you to know. seriously, i hate to talk about him. it sucks and i can't help but breakdown. at least not in front of you. and i've got a hard time faking it. pathetic isn't it?...haven't cry for so long. its like after putting down the phone, i just...

its suppose to be a nice conversation. ended up getting me fCuken confused and sad. yea..confuse.
in the process of turning and tossing, i got a dream..a fCukin` dumb one. its something i dream of it during the day but i just hate to dream of it at night.
wondering how to end this entry. wondering what im gon` do with my life. wondering how should i carry on. wondering whether if i should just end it.
nah. . .im not dumb to that extent.

by the way, you were saying that you're not gon` talk to me for months is it?
okay. i knew you won't giva shit about me anyway.
once and for all, bye. you're just another one who breaks my heart. nevermind. wadeva....




imnotokay-





withlove,
jen

anyone care to acc me chat on the phone??
im dying..

*friend: 'hey! *** is getting married with her stead next yr!'
jjen: 'huh??!?!?...'


*friend: 'we got the 7yr plan..'
jjen: 'wad 7 yr plan??'
friend: 'we plan to get married 7yrs later'
jjen: speechless....


*friend: 'wad abt you?'
jjen: 'me arhh...err' -gulps




seriously, i've got nothing to say. well, i really do feel happy for em. at least they got plans..this shows that they're going strong. im envy. yeahh..always. people are getting married, and im still not attached. but hey, im single but im not looking. its him that im all about.
im alone. i don't mind being alone if i've got nobody that i really like..but the fact is, i can't be with *him..and thats why im alone. saddist. he just blew me off. im just so stuck for so long. perhaps, it may not be forever..but i know im all about you for now. i rather he has never been mine. at least i won't feel so darn ....nevermind..can't find the word to describe.
sometimes i wonder..wonder if pigs could fly if we're together once again..
there's this time when we were so close to being back together but somehow, it didn't worked out.
the thought of it just makes my heart ache..
i can't find my tears now..really...most probably it gets all drown inside

i lurrve you once
this time, i lurrve you once more
or perhaps even more..
i don't find myself ever letting go
even tho i wished so much to..

shut the hell up!!!!

im freaking hungry

argghhhhhhh-

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This is a test post from Photobucket.com

im alone..alonealonealonealonealonealone
no one's there.
i wanted so much to cry
but somehow
i didn't
im probably already numb

just got back home...stef just went away..
watched 'TheEye10' just now..its like so fCukin` dumb..totally freak me out!!



i wished u were beside...but...nevermind..wadeva..
-sorryforeverything.

not much stuff..went to kfc with lynn, shanjie & stef. went over to the new house..damnit..clean my room..freaking` tired.







blowaway-

damn. im wearing contact lens right now....god bless me.



by the way, is it very obvious that i detest her??

i woke up late today..if stef hasn't sms me, i prolly be stuck in my dreamland. thanx arhh..must be yesterday night stayed up too late but in the end still can't complete my 7 sets of emaths assignments..who cares.
nothing much happen except the fact that i keep on dozing off in class. I can't stand that 'ticko lee', 'bitchy kumari', 'potato yunos' and that 'old dumb ms ooh' ..they piss me off even at the sight of em makes me puke. uh-huh..i can tell your why...

Mr Lee->'ticko lee' or 'pervert lee'.
PE...this teacher is totally gay..i really couldn't giva shit about him anymore. who cares abt getting F9 for cca?? its not your grade anyway. its mine. so pls stop poking ur nose into my business. i've already show you my attitude. so kindly bug off.

Mrs Kumari->'one helluva cb bitch'
chemistry..she certainly don't know how to teach..only knows how to yak and yak...nothing but 'QuickCheck' & 'CriticalThinking' all day long..for heaven's sake, other classes all have notes but we have nothing okay..and she's making the whole class confuse! lessons so darn boring..i suppose this should explains why our class sci(phy/chem) msg is so high..go reflect on urself larhh..really wanna kick ur big ass out of our class...

Mr Yunos->'bitchy black potato'
god..this guy here is a pro. i wonder whether if he had learnt how to hypotise people before. mann...im practically knocked off during his social studies lessons. his dumb voice really makes people fall asleep and its a proven fact. [certified]..you this fCukin` jackass, called me the blurest girl in his class. wads more?? he called me a dumb girl too...chrissakes..you moronic roasted potato...i make sure one fine day i have you cooked...

Mrs Ooh->old sickening lady
physics. im starting to fall asleep in her class also. she's actually not bad larhh..its just that she's sickening...she's a sickening old lady whom i can't stand.



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god...help...
ahaz...hope my handphone bill turns out fine..

*crossfingers

argghhh- omg! 2 more pathetic days and i'll have to say good-bye to my beloved specs ..
argghh

first day...damn freaking boring. especially chemistry. Kumari's just one helluva bitch. pardon me for being crude but i just feel like cursing her. she sucks big time okay. still have lortsa assignments not yet complete. who cares..i don't giva damn anyway.


*we really did nothing that day. you guys are thinking way too far and too much.

Happy burfdae dad~!
=x

damn. i just can't seem to finish all the holiday homework. helloooo...you call this a holiday??? its even worst than our normal school days. if thats the case, i rather not have holdays at all..



im trying hard.
really...

god..so tired
hell lortsa things not yet buy. table..sofa..mirror..closet..bedframe..mp3.......arghhh . everything that's needed in my room all haven't buy.
mommy drag me to the optical shop today. she said 'contact lens are better!' 'but mom, very troublesome larhh'... =Pp its true. i hate getting up earlier just to get that darn piece of plastic into my eye..its not as if i've never wear it before..nways, im collecting my contact lens on wed i think..god bless

gon` move house next next mon.hmmm...im still deciding on the colour of my room. Red? Pink? Orange? lavender? arghh- hell lortsa stuffs need to be bought. anyone care to help??

stayed at home the whole day except the miserable 5-10 mins which i went down to get something from stef. wonder how i could stand staying at home??? hmmm...i dont know it myself. i've also learnt to spend my whole day on the bed..sounds stupid isn't it??? well, no choice. you've to do it when you dread going out and face your friends..or when ure just tryna run away..that's what i usually do. tho i hate shutting myself but no choice. anyway..i've grown to like staying at home.im not like that last time..its just that...uh-huh...okay..i've got nothing to say..





wish you luck..

babyiloveyouandi'llneverletyougo

my ankle's hurting
and
its swollen
bless me-

missyousomuch

woke up only around 2++pm this afternoon. god~i didn't expect myself to be so late..wonder how Jianwen and Vincent managed to make it at 8.30am..lloll
was rotting at home yesterday night when yonlong suddenly called asking me whether i wanna go Sentosa today..coincidently, they were under my block..so, i went down and meet em. Vincent Yonglong Jianwen & Jason were there..but yonglong left early..so left the four of us..vincent left with yonglong but returned after that..the 3 of us jianwen jason and me went to jason's relative house to take something..along the way, they did some kindof dumb stuffs..dirty things actually..shall not elaborate here..yeahh something to do with balloon (= . then headed to Jason's house afterwards. Jason going to Genting around 4++am..
on the way to don't know where, saw police car..dots..they were having illegal stuffs with em k..so no choice, went to my house. they were doing their own things while i sleep..couldn't sleep peacefully actually..they keep disturbing.
Jianwen told me that the thing is not true..so should i believe him or you..wadeva it is, will the outsome be different?? or will it still be the same??

Its a damn cold nite-
im just all alone- yeah, again..
gotta the urge to msg you- but..
held back-
wonder where ure-

im not crazy-
im just alil unwell-

went for the dumb eng lesson this morning..mom, dad and sis away..left me all alone at home.. )= its always like this...im just all by myself
i thought im okay
but
im just not.

tho we're not together anymore
i won't forget the times when we're together.
honestly, you really bought me joy
i seriously misses you sometimes
but..
i just chose to stay away for now

[don't read if ure not interested cuz it gon` bore you out][its just another boy&girl story]




there's this sec guy and gurl who doesn't know each other at first. one particular day, gurl was as usual, rotting and watching tv at home. '1 message received' ..obviously, its from the guy..they sms chat..yeahh..chat more and more everyday. but also don't know where the hell he get her number from. Nevermind about that..she starting liking him but didn't show. at last, the guy ask the gurl for stead..feeling happy, she agreed.

Everything goes on quite well at first till another guy comes into the picture. okay, lets call him 'A'. A and the gurl were good friends and always hang around together. The gurl is always thinking 'why am i closer to him compared to my stead? why is he always the one who came and look for me but not my stead? ' cuz of some of these reasons, the relationship between the two of em starts to turn bad..she would normally show him her attitude for no reason but still, she lurrve him k...she doesn't wanna treat him so badly. she just feel that he doesn't care and bother about her..sounds pretty sad isn't it??

both of em stead on a beautiful Sunday afternoon and break on a fCukin`pathetic Sunday afternoon. the gurl actually thought of patching things up but god knows, he told her he's interested in someone else just after a few days they seperated. She remembered him saying that he would make her his last girlfriend...................


its been more than a year now..much things have happened in between..things weren't the way she want them to be. they didn't get back together.






-gon update this pathetic story some other time...

its a decision i make and i won't make my fCukin` mind about it. Im selfish..so sorry if anyone's hurt.
today's P.T.C but daddy and mom don't wanna go. was thinking of smsing Mdm.K and tell her about it..too bad, i didn't have her number.

im suffering from severe heartache now
its like im crying inside

im alone-

nobody's reaching out a hand for me to hold-

im wondering. If i've held on and we never break, will we carry on till this far?!?!? well, at least there's this possibility but now..no chance at all

yaa..y.l encourage me to say those things which i kept inside myself for a long time. i msg him. told him my feelings and stuffs but not everything..but it doesn't matter now. he said he got someone else in his heart and im already attached.however, i don't expect him to do anything or wadever..its just that im afraid if i don't tell him now, i'll not have the courage to do so the next time and i might just regret it. but there's something he doesn't know..i don't see the point of telling him..cuz no matter wad, the ending or result will still be the same. i won't cry. at least try hard not to cry in front of my friends..i don't wanna em to feel bad or what..i rather keep everything to myself. i won't do anything stupid. i'll carry on. i don't wanna have any relationship with guys except you. i'd probably shut myself up for sometime.

if you happen to drop by,
see all those stars in my blog?!?!
find em familiar??


thinkaboutit-


evenifyoudon'thavemeinsideyourheart,
justwannaletyouknowthat
uretheonlyoneinmyheart

just reached home not long ago..didn't have much lessons today..mostly was paper-crane folding session. heard that 4eE won..congrat.
after school, went to 219, look for Jason. the grp there was playing bball except Khim.G and Yong.L..Yonglong seemed quite pissed off..arguement with pat..w.j was there too..can't take my eyes off him..don't know whether he got notice anot )= nways..they're needed back in school so me and stef went to Mac and waited for em..somehow, for don't know wadeva reason, i didn't want it anymore. lloll. its bad for health okay..y.l and Jason came and join us at mac after that..did nothing much there..eat/crap...yeahh..i asked him what exactly happened that day..


finally know what i want-
alliwantisyou-
willyoucomeback?-
i'd give you anything everything-
i can even give you my world-
cuz ure the onlyonewithinmyheart-
canwemakeit?-
urestilltheoneilove-
the onlyone i dream of-
urestilltheoneiwantforlife-

yeah....im smiling..


faked-

I wanna believe in everything that you say
'Cause it sounds so good

I'd do anything,
I'd give you my world
I'd wait forever to be your girl
Just call out my name, and
I will be there
Just to show you
how much I care

i felt so out of place today..yeahh. and my friends notice it..all i could do was feed em with a fake smile and an excuse saying that i didn't sleep well last night..anyways, i really didn't sleep well last night..keep on tossing and turning, thinking about what *you said.
was i supposed to forget it all or was it that i had to forget about it?!?!
*you made me fall deeper
*couldn't keep my mind off *you today
*i waited sososo darn long for *you to tell me this but
*but now its like ...
*no happy ending
*heartbreak
*you won't understand
*i feel as if someone was holding on to my hand and just shake it off so suddenly and let me fall

so far, i haven't cry..cuz im trying hard not to...i don't want anymore scars on my hand..the old one is still there..just wouldn't fade away...*ur name is there too..but luckily, not that obvious




itseemslikeajoke
andobviously,
icouldn'ttakeit
iwannayouback-

iwannasleepmylifeaway

i waited for so long to hear that..but now you said it..you think i'll treat it as nothing has happen?!? you just mean alot to me....yeahh...alot...


outofmymind-

i feel like just jumping down from my house or take a knife and slash myself a few times to make sure that the bleeding won't stop or do something which will land me in hospital..so that i won't have to see you and feel heartbroken. each time i see you, i long so much for you to be back...sad to say, you didn't. I told myself i won't cry a tear for you but in the end i still. you may think im so stupid/dumb or silly..i won't giva damn..no matter what, i'll still be there..

i dont wanna lose you
but
you just went away
ure so near
but
you seem so far
you just don't know
im there
always-

it's confirmed, i failed 3 subs overall for this common test. obviously, i did worst than the last class test. those subs which i passed were only borderline. )=
P.T.C approaching soon and i haven't tell my parents about it..damnit..wondering how to break the news to em..
lol. mommy bought one big bottle of milk/soft lotion for me.. *grins-



im thinking this all over once more
im afraid that i'll be wrong again

stef was absent today..said she was sick
took the amaths retest after school
went home and changed after that
come out..
meet the pig
went for lunch
thinking of watching movie
but
eliminate the idea somehow
decided to go to beach
yea..its Sembawang beach
i hate it there..
bad memories
its round 7 plus
and we're kindof stranded there
dumb journey back home..
reached home at around 8 plus
freaking tired`

i just read a story..and im uber-touched



a girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on the road...
Girl: Slow down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug. *Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? Its bugging me.
(In the paper the next day):
A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. 2 people were on it, but only 1 survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him & felt her hug 1 last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.

wtf..i lost 90 bucks..
most probably misplaced it..
if found, pls kindly return

revamped-myblog

damnit-i failed my Eng. by one pathetic mark. what the hell is wrong with the teacher?!?!..can't even give me one mark to let me pass?!?!?
MsHo was one m.c today which means two free periods after recess..chrissakes, that sicking old woman[MsOoh] came in. Brought us to the lab for physics lesson..Hellooo...its our f r e e period okay..and its two whole period somemore..can't someone just knock some sense into her???
went lunch with Stef at the cafe at C.C . after some bitching and gossiping, went home.

Its surprising that i didn't get myself all worked up cuz of wad he said yesterday night. its ok. its all over..we're going to get on well (= right?!?!
it has be announced that tomorrow's gon` be a skirt checking day. hmmm, i asked Willy.T abt my skirt length just now. He said 'no problem'. lloll. and after skirt check gon` be hp check...damnit..



-Imlosingmygrip

I'd do anything,
I'd give you my world
I'd wait forever to be your girl
Just call out my name, and
I will be there
Just to show you
how much I care

perhaps i should think it all over again-
somehow its not something i want-

oh well, i didn't go school today cuz of a real dumb reason...my ankle's still creating trouble for me..it looks kinda swollen

if im not wrong, yesterday was a darn bloody day. i swear i hate bus912 forever..me and my boy was taking that damn bus when we met exactly 4 lunatics. It goes like this..
at first, we were still standing..and two lil fat kids came running round the bus and practically knocked everyone. know wad?..they were extraodinarily-crude-ill-bred-disgusting...you guys won't imagine what song they sang and how on earth would they come up with such a song. damnit. i was like traumatized by em when their lil sis came and sit right beside me..chrissakes, their stupid mom can still smile at me as if nothing had happen...that damn lil gurl pull my shirt, made a scene..i was kindof molested in some way..i just felt like giving em one tight slap..but she's not even a pri sch kid..wad can i do?!?..and everything hapens inside that damn 912 public bus.they were nothing but a bunch of creatures full of vulgarities. damnit...motherfCukin`jackass-


these bunch of pure-gross people made me dislike/scare of kids now..fCuk