don't know.
i really don't know.
perhaps,
im still pretty much trapped inside.
continue to wallow in that hopeless pool of mine.


sorry if i hurt you in any way.
but i doubt so.
cuz most prolly its just an infatuation.
at least thats what i think.
yup.

constant disturbances can be a turn-off sometimes.
i wouldn't want it to turn out this way.






much love,
jjen

whats wrong with flooble?
why is it always down?

amaths tuition in the morning.
afternoon met up with bex.
supposed to study.
but..well,
we ended up walking around.
went up timezone.
saw Khim gee and guys.
omfg.
they're making me REALLY embarrassed.

off to cwp.
we did the same boring thing again.
walk around.......
damn.
really bored larh.










some people seriously have no brains.
or is it that they don't undertand what i wrote or said?
can't believe this kinda people actually exist-ed.





confused.
yup. this's the right word for me now.
i don't know how true everything is.
but.
bex told me to at least consider about it.
well...
honestly,
nevermind.
i don't know it myself either.
god bless anyway.
((=

=DD

i skipped school today.
together with bex.
meet fang in the morning go 233 have our breakfast.
ting was there also.
some guys, as usual.

fang wanna go school.
so left me, bex and khim gee there.
afterwhich..
the 3 of us took cab to Jason hse.
waited for jianwen.
then
waited for linda n Jason.
we kinda 'stoned' at his house.

somebody obviously have no brains.
he/she tryna land bex into trouble.
how fcuking idiotic can that person be.

and i realised another dumb person
who hides behind the name 'anon',
went to tagged at stef's blog.
omfg.
i've got nothing to say.
LOSERS-


guess we're just pretty suay these few days.


oh ya..
if anyone thinking of trying their luck
at the don't-know-call-wad machine in Timezone..
the machine which got big big softtoys inside..
big big mickeys and minnies...
plssssss don't waste ur money.
i've tried before but failed.
my friends tried before but failed.
apparently, the guys got it..a few i should say.
wonder why..
wadever it is, i call that cheater machine.
cheat people.

prep sucks.
seriously, at the rate im going,
i doubt i'll even make it to poly.
god bless.





-i've no comments for *this.

met yonglong they all at Orchard just now.
was shopping with my mom.
((=

bought a mickey skirt and top at isetan.
then free 1 $55 mickey watch.
abit weird.
its like u spent at least $60 and u get a free watch.
cheap right?


honestly, im sick and tired of the tremendous amount of tuitions im having.
i have 2 days for amaths, 2 days for emaths, 1 day for sub.sci.
horrible uh..

Watched 'The Maid' at yishun GV just now.
with leo and stef.
lloll.
((=
funny things happened during the movie.
poor leo..

mwa-


about the blog-cum-tagboard war,
i think it's kinda settle already.
tho we still don't know we did that
but, we got to learn about something else.
yup.
saddening.

Im gon` watch that penguin movie..
yea.. ((=


apparently, there had been some kinda blog war going on.
the story goes like this...........................

fang's tagboard got vandalised.
ting got fed up.
bex kinda got criticised in sonebody's entry or tagboard.
ting got even more fed up.
and then the online tagboard war started.

=DD

well, i must say that anony trend or fever is on this season uh?
why are there so many anony in tagboards?
it's okay. If you leave ur friendly comments and not wanting to be known.
but it's definitely mean of these people to go around tagging crude stuffs.

to the seriously very pathetic anony who tagged at fang's blog,
are you ashame of urself?
no confidence?
scared?
tagged shitloads of fcuking trash at other's blog.
hasn't your mom teach you not to do such bad stuff?
hasn't your mom tell you not to be mean to others?
why call people 'cheena ah-lians'?
if im not wrong, ur cheena meant china right?
uh-huh.
DISCRIMINATION.
so you must be thinking that you urself are so 'cool'?
pls don't expect others to behave like you.
so what's wrong with all the 'knnbccb'?
don't tell me that you have never use any vulgarities at all.
bullshit.
i always go blog-hopping.
and its like i see loads of 'knnbccb' every minute.
even some famous bloggers use em.
so whats so wrong with you anony?
pls lah..get a life can?


me and my gurls truly despise you.

don't ask me why.
i myself don't understand.
people do change you see..

its kinda saddening
when..
you thought everything's going smoothly
but in the end,
you realised its just another false alarm..

ask yourself what you really want.
uh-huh?
think about it...

today's eng oral sucks.
don't wanna talk about it.



im not interested anymore.

went J8 just now with mom.
for dinner you see..
went to order fried chicken.
that young guy don't wanna sell me.

guy: 'you having flu uh?'
me: 'err..yup'
guy: 'flu better don't eat chicken larh'.
me: 'erm..oh..okay'

woah..this kinda people also have.
got business also dont want.



thus, i conclude that there're still very nice strangers out there.
((=


and i pray that my throat and that stupid flu gon` be alright
by tomorrow.
god bless me for tml's eng 'O' oral.

alright.
i actually forgot something so important.
guess who we saw at Sun plaza's library today?
its MACDONALD.
mwa-

yup.
its him.
im indeed very entertained by him.

we thought of going to that library to study.
but was crowded by lil kids.
stef didn't wanna go to a fast food restaurant at first.
cuz she know i'll be distracted.
in the end no choice.
so we went to the sun plaza's KFC.
stayed there the whole afternoon.
saw funny people.
((=

yeap.
this is the third post within 15mins.
so stupid.

okay. concentration span over.


'wad the...very sian larh. don't study liao..'
see the pig face already know he can't concentrate.
lloll


you call this study? ..ai mei only. =DD
with credits to my hello kitty mirror.

there..the 'couple' i was talking about.
too bad, i failed to take a pic of em groping each other.
wasted.
awww~

went for maths tuition in the morning.
supposed to go for sci tuition in the afternoon with bex but went studying with leonard and stef instead.
((=

yup. we studied.
i guess leo was the most hardworking just now uh.
i was distracted by the cheese fries right from the start.
lloll.
stef's idiot lincoln hang around for awhile.
yea. study physics.
listened to leo's cd.
majority were gay songs.
blehs.

oh..me and stef were disturbing leonard and a *girl.
the helpless look in him made me laugh and wanna disturb him more.
looks like im right after all.
with reference to all the sources and evidence me and stef have gathered,
we thus conclude that ahem*.
yep.
sounds a bit dumb.
nevermind.

by the way,
a guy came and asked for my num while we were all *studying.

guy: 'can have your num?'
jen: 'oh. i don't have a handphone'
guy (pointing to my hp) :' there..this's yours right.'
jen: oh..nope..is hers (stef).
guy (pointing to stef's hp and said to her): 'is yous what'
stef (point to leo) : 'no. not mine. his'

yup. lame uh?
i always told people i don't have a handphone.
i should have gave that guy leo's num.
wasted.
if not, can prank call.
and stef told me that, that guy who asked for my num was jia rui's friend.
well, jia rui was from her tuition centre last time. Just Mathematics tuition centre.
hmmm. i remember him.
the funny guy who sits besides timothy during tuition class.
the whole group was together you see..
and one of em came in and ask for num.
how dumb.


sitting behind us was a 'couple'.
yep. a pair of lesbian.
you know what they do?
the girl was touching the other girl's hand.
those arousing kind..
then they do some funny thing also.
don't really know how to describe.
okay.
i tooka snapshot of em
((=

Been blog-hopping around, since i allow myself to be distracted by the comp.
certain people are getting more ridiculous i supposed.

take the famous blogger, 'FrJ2', for example,
it was my first time visit there.
i was like omfg.
she actually post that kinda thing?
i mean those stuffs she wrote about herself.
well, i admire her in another way you see..
not many people have that truckloads of courage to do that.
saying how her sexy her body was, great figure and things like that. yup.
have you got that guts?
lol.
nope. i don't and i won't do that.
now, she's famous.
people are regularly visiting her blog,
eager to see if there's any newly hot pictures of her.


mwa-










for don't know whatever fcukin` reason, i wrote *your name. yep.
nevermind about that.
tomorrow, im gon` be dead.
mt 'O' level results will be out.
awww~
mum's gon` be uber-disappointed if i don't get an 'A'.

Mon eng 'O' level.
people, remind me to bring my ic and entry proof.
thanks.

prep's next week.
hell.
followed by prelims.
and then the big thing.
yeah. BIG thing.
prepare to see me cry.

lol.
that stupid moronic guy with a pathetic pea brain.
he's gon` make me laugh my ass off.
never seen a guy so freaking despo like him before.
the way he talks to me,
make me feel like puking.
He and his shitloads of bullshit...
nothing but trash.

omfg, you want me to be your girlfriend?
blehs.
im flattered.

to SOME GIRLS out there,

you don't have to stare at me like some alien from mars.
you seriously don't have to srcutinise me from head to toe.
so what if im the only one with painted nails in the tuition centre?
so what if i've got baby pictures in my file?
so what if im wearing my mascara to tuition?
so what if im dressed like as if im going shopping to tuition?

all the above are none of ur fcukin` biz right?
'problematic kid', 'attitude', 'ah-lian', 'young pregnancy' blablabla..
these must be some of the things that flashes in your mind when you stared hard at me uh.

by the way,
getting my nails paint and having baby pictures in my file doesn't mean that imma ah-lian whose into frequent sex activities and gon` have a baby anytime.
you don't see me scolding those hokkien vulgarities do you?
you don't see me having tattoos on my limbs do you?
i don't even talk to anyone except Ms Yeo.
i don't wear those brick-like platform shoes either.

grow up pls.
you yourself are the ah-lians.
staring at other people and whispering in each other's ears.
carrying those fake von-dutch bags.
certainly no offence to other von-dutch carriers.
omfg.
yucks.


you people are sick.
hopeless.








-mwa

it's contradicting when this kinda thing starts again.
i thought it was over.
but i guess im wrong.
im always wrong by the way...


nevermind...
im used to it.

i seriously don't like the idea of people staring at me.
for no reason at all.


it's freaking rude to do that.

Inspired by Samuel/Jun Haowho wrote a very true article.-
Hope this article will be passed down tothose who realise it's the truth.
you see, people in friendster are like NUTS, Guys and Girls, no offence but,girls especially.You guys use the word me as miee, youas euu. 'diao' so damn frequently likeusing your grandma's lawn.Do yous guys know the meaning?Guys too, listen up.Diao - meaning a male's genital orrather, manhood strong and powerful,robust and sturdy.You guys use it as if it's some -_-statement. Acting cute while you are at it.Like what Samuel said, Friendster profilesare chewed up and spit out like badbacon.Next point.I know for you youngster reading this atthe age of 10-13.uP aNd DoWn is WaYyYY cOoL. ReAlLYuBeR aNd 1337. No, if you grow up,you'll find it real lame.Unless you have a nickname which waslike this till now. Try completing a resumeusing aLtErNaTe cAps. I bet the personreading it will laugh his lungs out.It's wayyyy gh3y. YES, GH3Y, pronounceit and it becomes GAY. Notes to add :GH3Y is in h4ck3r's language.I'm done with the first half, take a break.Drink some coffee. Done? Read on.75% of the girls always have this orsomething similiar in their profiles.dUnCh MeSsAgE miie iN fWeNsTeRtWoo aDd eUu. yOU aDd miEe oNlY.dUnCh aDd miIe JusT beCuZ eUu wAnTmOrE fRiEnS.OH COME ON. I've seen many girlsadvertise on irc like this.. example. nooffence now.This one's from the channel #teens[02:57] add miee in fwenster . .@hotmail.comasap pls. .! thx!Her profile which i went to, had themessage.>>>> if u msg muee to add muee in2 uracct, sowie. im NOT interested.just dun eva try ta add muee jus bcus u wan more fwens or u wan feel popular in fwenster.i dunch entertain to this kinda lame shiet.


i copied this wholesale alright.
found it rather interesting cuz its soso true.
anyway, hope that no one is offended after reading this.
if you're, then go find fault with the friendster.
mwa-

lol.
seems like lotsa interesting stuffs happened today.
and i don't know how to go about it..
thought that all the interesting things gon` end the minute i get home.
well, i was wrong.
saw my tagboard just now.
i was like' woah!..who's this fantabulous person uh?'
my taggy kena vandalised.
nevermind, its okay.
im not gon` giva shit about it.
leave all the negative comments you want.
but im actually quite interested to know who did that.