yadayada. The fonts couldn't be seen properly. Small and blurr-ed. Who cares?. I like it. I like the word aircrash. I like the animated pink lil tiny weeny boxes. bah...


Prime's actually not bad. Quite nice i should say. A relationship between a 37 yr old woman and a 23 yr old guy. Age difference by a damn biggie bloody 14 yrs. woah~ Both of em are sure hot. Sex-driven. LOL. I'd die of cardio-respiratory failure if i've got a patient who tell me all her wild sex activities with my son. Not to forget, this particular patient even tells me abt my son's penis. Omfg. -slaps head.

go watch it people, its nice. worth it. ((= i'd give it 3 1/2 smooches out of 5.




shall grab some snacks before going to bed.
((=

lost the momentum to blog. Well, today's supposed to be prom night but i didn't go. Why? cus i couldn't find the dress design i want. simple as that.
Went for my first job that day. Omg. yup. really omg. I thought it's not gon` be hard initially. Looks like i'm terribly wrong. I stood at Raffles place asking passers-by to fill up some sort of lucky draw forms. Those people generally have the same expressions.

[1] 'sorry, im rushing...'

[2] stare at me as if i owe her 1 million. (apply to women only)

[3] decline politely when they know that they've to fill in their particulars.

[3] pretend to be on the phone.

[4] 'where got so good deal one?...i don't believe'

[5] doesn't even look at me. (apply to women only)


In conclusion, guys tend to be more kind-hearted than women. Thats only my opinion not a fact alright. Out of the few forms i managed to get filled up, none of em were women. How nice...
Steph, fang+guy and me quitted halfway. cannot make it. too tiring. Not to mention, we have to face countless rejections. Applying for this darn job was a horrendous mistake right from the start. lol.

any other jobs people?






by the way, i think i'll repeat this once again. Looks are not important. MANNERISMS and POISE are. Not to forget, the way you dress counts too. It matters alot to girls. geddit?

I saw your teardrops
and I heard you cry
All you need is time
Seek me and you shall find
You have everything and you're still lonely
It don't have to be this way
Let me show you a better day

Alright. Some 'idiot' gave me a morning call and woke me up. Its like 8++am. Omg. Had my lunch at home and proceeded to meet him. Went Shaw House for some kinda job interview as told by Steph.


That place, bwg. Total silence. In a sense, 'ulu malu'. lol. So, we went in. One ang moh came and greeted us. blablabla. Shall not rattle about those boring details. that ang moh practically son't know why we went there for. He seems ignorant about the job i'm talking about. Damn. nevermind.


Movie!!! ahaz. Bought tix for Saw II. Since it was still early, we walked around. bumped into a couple of friends. yup.



Saw II is horribly gross!!!!!!.
even worst than House of Wax. certain parts are quite suffocating and disturbing.
-puke.

Hmmm...where shall i start?


__Wednesday.

school early morning to collect the document which those teachers labelled as important. Surprised to know that im actually eligible for the 3 mth pre-u course. surprise surprise. But well, im not gon` go for it. Poly suit me better. Afterwhich went home change and headed to Orchard with him.

I'm sorry to those die-hard potter fans out there but Goblet Of Fire SUCK.
omg. I anticipated for this movie. It was a disappointment. The movie doesn't captivate me at all. Lord Voldemort looks like a pimp. HAHA-
Dumbledore seems to be going on a menopause ride.

alrightalright.
((=

walked around Orchard. Bored. Went to find my mom afterwards. Off to KL.




__Friday[today]


Those people there suck. I know. Been there umpteen times. The train suck. The passengers suck. The passengers's attitude suck. The service suck. Almost everything suck.
The train's awfully smelly. Booooo~
The tain's air-con is dying. Must be too OLD.
-slaps head.

I was sitting beside my mommy. There's this very dumb uncle who wanted to chat with his mom/wife/auntie. Don't know larh... so he conveniently placed his butt on my handle. OMFG. can you guys even imagine that? I wanted so sosososo much to scold him !@#$^$%&% but mommy held me back. Helloo...thats MY seat alright, not to mention he got an enormous biggie butt. Heaven's sake. So he got his back and smelly butt facing me while he down there happily chat with his don't know wife or mom. Arghhh. Where got this kind of people you tell me..?!?!
what a bitch. Im already very disturbed by the indian-malay stench in the train and now, this idiotic uncle came to 'share' my seat with me. wth. sorry to my indian, malay friends if i sounded racist. sorry.

In short, the journey back home is HORRIBLE, HORRENDOUS cus those people are so INCORRIGIBLE.







Im damn happy to be back home now. Home sweet home. =D




alright alright.
thats all.

((=


went to Jalan Kayu for pratas before my paper. *yummy yummy.
comb. sci p1 was alright. Have problems in the chem section tho. die die. Nevermind. Nightmare's over. Yup. OFFICIALLY OVER.


curled my hair just now. Sat there for like 5 hrs. Omg. Its killing me. My contacts were kinda dried up. Was shivering. Stomach was frantically yelling for help. Poor thing. Finally, everything's done. The upper portion was rebonded. Lower portion curled. They said that this was the latest perm. Digital perm they call it. yadayada.








I'm still thinking...
wait wait...

Went for some sort of interview with Stephh, Bex and Fang at Standard Chartered Bank there. The lady who interviewed us said that we'll definitely get a job. She even made a comment about me. ' you're not interested in admin stuffs right cus you don't have the admin face.' Omg.
-slaps head.


Had a surprise this early afternoon. Really BIG surprise. All thanks to Stephh for her BIG present uh...
((=


Had a surprise this mid-afternoon again. Really BIG surprise. All thanks to *Ahem.
Its really nice of you to be there whenever i need you.
Stood up for me too.
=D
you're just too good to be true.
really...no doubts about it.

I'm falling.
Well, not as hard as i used to.

Went J8 early afternoon with Steph to catch a glimspe of the 'Campus Superstar'. There's sure alot of students who took part. Friends were there to support them and all. Lesner, Linda, Huiyi, Jesmin and blablabla participate too. They were pretty nervous i supposed. Anyways, *cheerios.
=DD It takes courage to go up there eh..


Headed to Bugis after that. Went there looking for jobs but couldn't find any. Nevermind.






I don't know if its a mistake.
Something's still lacking in there.
Something's happening too.
don't know.
It's contradicting.
Killing my brain cells.

O Levels are officially over. Let's PARTY!!!
Weeeee uuuu weetttt~ (hope i didn't get the spelling wrong)




strange enough, my excitement dies not long after History paper today. I thought i'm gon` like jump 3m above the ground or something more crazy. Well, i didn't. Only jumped on the same spot for a mere 3 secs. For your info, my majors are not officially over yet. There's still a comb sci p1 next tues. wth. But, who cares. Today marks the start of freedom. I'm gon` get my hair done by next week. Was thinking of looking for a job. Omg. I've never work before leh.

Majority said that amaths p2 today was easy. Well, at least its more manageable than p1. Still, i've doubts in passing Add maths overall. Nevermind. Suddenly got the urge to eat pratas. Those from Jalan Kayu. -drools.

was wondering if there's any optical shop near my house. Needa get contact lens.

Mentioned in my previous post that I'm gon` get every sums done by tonight right? lmao. Tell you something, I spent my entire pretty afternoon sleeping at home. Thought i'd make use of Wed afternoon to do something more productive and constructive( isn't it the same?). Omg. Wasted a beautiful day just like that. Well, at least I'm pretty sure my presence made someone smile. It's not that bad after all.

Heard that quite a number of people from NSS wanted to take part in the don't know call what campus superstar. HAHA
All the best for em.
((=
-hallelujah


Tomorrow's amaths p2. Bless me people.

Bye bye. Gone case. yup. That prolly concludes my amaths paper1 today. P2's on thurs.
-amen.

I'm so gon` force myself to sit down and do the topical 10 yr series. Those chapters which have not come out for P1. Shall get every sums done by tomorrow night. ((= yesyes...

Well, I'm still still deciding whether to travel all the way to Bishan tomorrow late noon. We'll see about it. Still early now...

Plans for sat...
Harry potter?
Roller blade?
Bugis?

HAHA-
I'd choose going to Bugis with Steph. Errr. you guys wouldn't know. omg. Dilemma.








Maybe...
god knows..

Be sure of what you want.
Happiness won't come knocking on your door unless you fight for it.
you wouldn't know the outcome until you try.
Don't ever be afraid of failures.
You fell down once doesn't mean you can't get up forever.


((=

I know i always say that blog songs/music are stupid cus they clashes with the songs people are listening to when they read your blog. Well, ahemm....this's nice. iloveit. since last time but only recently get to hear it more often.


((=




perhaps ibook ain't suitable for me. shall consider another one.

Today's biology paper. Omg. 50-50.
CMI larh. I didn't know how to do 2 qns. Heart and Eye.
damn...tried very hard to attempt it. anyhow bomb only..

HAHA-

I don't care.
I don't give a fuckin` shit.
I just wanna say, FUCK YOU.

omg. Feel so good. HAHA-









The papers so far, hmmm, not bad. ya...not bad. I smell freedom from tomorrow onwards.
=DD

I heard some things. yup. Negative stuffs about them. Found that certain parts are quite true. Be kind to me and i might consider sharing it with you people. ((= Its less than 48 hrs to the first paper. I could hear my lil brain whining for help.






I can't buy back tomorrow.
so, i'll move on.
for real this time.

Its over. Settled. yup. Its a lesson learnt. Won't go out with the other gender again. Not unless i inform my bf/gf about it. I thought it was nothing. I thought it was just a normal going out with friends or brothers. I forgotten how others would think. A moment of folly.

friends.

I've got nothing to say. After all, its my fault. Really sorry.

I don't know why it turn out to be like that. Well, sorry. Its my fault but iloveyou.

I feel like taking back what i've said. Its really saddening to go through this. I hate to say that i'm already starting to regret. I just love him too much...but what done cannot be undone. Hate myself for doing this.



Tears don't taste salty anymore. They're bitter. Tomorrow's not gon` be better. Everything sucks.

Sky High is awesome.
seems to be watching movies almost every alternate days.
cool uh.




I don't know whats wrong with me or you but that's certainly not the way i want it to be. You said you've think through that very day. Look at the silence between us. I know im in the wrong somehow. I know i shouldn't have done that. I should have told you beforehand. Well, have you ever reflect on yourself? Where were you when i need you? My cellphone rings almost every thirty mins but none of the calls were from you. My cellphone vibrates constantly but none of the messages were from you. im always waiting. Nevermind. Today marks our 1 month. Its okay really. Nothing could strain this even more. I'm tired. I teared yesterday's night when i think of it. yup. guilty. And each time i cry, i would tell myself that this gon` be the last time. However, i failed miserably. This relationship seems to be built on nothing. I know i tried and i've put in my utmost effort. I can't predict whats going to happen next. Perhaps, there won't even be a tomorrow for the both of us. I don't wanna let go but, i've no choice. We're just drifting further and further away...

Another day gone.
A nearer step to the majors.


Watched ' Transporter 2' just now. ((=
Didn't really go anywhere today.
Gon` meet up with Steph tml.







Perhaps...yup...
perhaps...