IE's working again, like finally. Life without IE was horrible.


[Night at the Museum] with Ziyong and Ziyuan. Ridiculous movie. LOL. Super cool job. I wanna be a night guard too. =D

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Isetan's private sale was crazy. The whole building was infested with people. Went there to have my levis changed. They don't have my size anymore. Have to wait for about 3 days for em to transfer stock over. Stupid. Luckily my levis ain't on sale. Those on sale were last season. Bought nothing at the sale. Nothing for me to buy. Went home with only a lingerine.

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[Death Note2 The Last Name] with Sunny. Clever plot. L's IQ must be at least 200. ILike ILike. ((:* DN2's much more interesting than the first. Go watch it people...





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Someone calls me his princess.
-____-'''
wth

Daddy will be back on Thurs. Lets see if he gets anything for me. ((:*

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If there's nothing missing in my life

then why do these tears come at night.

Mommy just knew about what happened between yucong and i. Didn't tell her much. She said she's actually proud of me that im so independent and strong. So much so that she didn't even notice im going through a rough patch after the break-up. Yeah, i totally agree with what my mommy said. Guys at this age will never be able to settle down. They just wanna have fun. They just like the chase. So, don't expect much from em. And, don't ever let myself fall too deep. Well, its too late. I already did. Anyway, i'm doing fine.



*You're such a great disappointment. I received tons of xmas greetings. Everyone but not you.
Thanks eh

Shopping again. Shopping heals a broken heart.

MERRY CHRISTMAS.

Went town with my mommy and sis.
Whole day. Tired like f*

Its so frustrating at times. I saw a mini but they don't have my size. I wanted a bag but they don't have a new piece. Damn.

Saw a black bottom over at MNG. Super cheap. For 59bucks only. HAHA. And i've always wanted a black bottom. Got my ladies style at Levis also. I get very excited when i see those blingbling kinda thing. Not to mention, its swarovski crystals. 219.50. Not bad eh. Not over 300bucks so its okay luh. Bought a wallet/clutch from 2cm. Its MARC JACOBS for god's sake. Don't know whether its genuine or an imitation. The lady told me that there's only one piece. 99bucks. Marc Jacobs got so cheap uh? But well, 2cm don't sell fake stuffs right? I can't tolerate imitations. I rather die please. Bought another simple top from FarEast.

Total damage for me = $400++

My sis bought her clothes, pencil case, wallet etcetc.

My mommy the best. HAHA. Everything she pay, like all the time.

I think i need to come up with a new wishlist for NewYear soon. So far i can only think of having a new bag from Coach. Hard to satisfy my material needs. ((:*


Orchard's soooo packed with people.....

Mom: 'Eh, why so many people.'
Me: 'Today xmas leh.'
Mom: 'Why so many lao ren(old people)?'
Me: 'Old people cannot come out ar?'
Mom: 'Old people come out for what? Stay at home luh...'
Me: 'Woah..don't so bastard can anot.'

LOL. =D


Yesterday's a blast, seriously. Insanity. haha. Im so glad that i didn't go town or whatsoever. Hanging out at *some text missing* place was good. (=

Tiger all the way. Cheapskate luh...Nevermind. Its real fun.

Come to think of it, its kinda bad. You never know what gon` happen cause things can just go wrong. Very wrong.

okayokay. whatever.
Home-d at around 6plus in the morning.





I feel so worn out. I need to replenish my beauty sleep. My legs feel like jelly. I had so little sleep these days. Ohmyholygod.

About an hour more to Christmas? Im not going for countdown. Im so not gon` squeeze with all those sweaty people at Orchard etcetcetc.

Got home at around 9plus i guess. Meet up with Yonglong and guys over at Suntec in the afternoon. For a moment, i thought Suntec's at Raffles City. Decided to drop at CityHall. Thank god, its the correct stop. lol. Been like 82465865th years since i last hang out with em.

Weijie, Yonglong, Jianwen+girlfriend, Vincent, Joshua, Linda, Leonard and er i dont know who??

They kept saying that i've put on weight, fat, chubby.

@$%$#%

-_______-'''

IM NOT FAT.

haha.

And, they kept meddling with my face.

pinch here and there. omg

=D

Had fun tho. Since im kinda nursing a heartbreak now, yadayada, it helps luh...

am i right?

Will be hanging out later. With? Friends, friends and friends.

Who else? No one special anway.

I need my BEAUTY SLEEP, really. Past few days have been a whore. Totally insufficient sleep. This is bad.

Junks Junks Junks

Booze Booze Booze

Bitch Bitch Bitch

Laugh Laugh Laugh

So like i didn't spend my xmas with boyfriend this year.

Im SINGLE.

I thought this year im gon` spend it with yucong since i spent it with him last year. Of course, it wasn't that great also.

Stupid PepperLunch.

What else?

Oh, the journey home, ALONE.

Its killing. Nobody knows alright. the bloody thing. No one will understand either.

Damn. The thought of it makes me feel like tearing again, NOT. Imma STRONG girl. yes, im one. I know its unheathy to keep everything to myself and not cry when i wanted to. Thats me.

(=

At least, this year's better. I might start loving christmas again.

Even though its always the breaking-up season.

Will update tomorrow about tonight.

Most probably the booze and laugh again.

i think i don't look like myself in this picture.

pardon me. i know the flash thing can be a lil irritating sometimes but can't stop playing around with the gif animator these days. ((=

So like i have been to town consistently?

Sat was shopping with mom.

Yesterday with Sylvia Tan and today with Angeline, Sunny and Bear.

There's nothing much for me to blog. I don't know what to blog. I've got nothing to blog about.

Have been dreaming alot recently. All sorts of dreams. Bad and good ones.

I dreamt of leeyucong yesterday. Why uh? lol. *slaps head . Oh, its a sweet dream.

Guys, im really fine now. Getting on well etc.

Where's my curlssssss???

Im absolutely fine. So, don't worry people.

Thanks to those who were there. Thanks to those who weren't there also.
Its great to see those endless text messages. Sorry to those whom i never reply.



I have had enough of those who always come running to me when they've got problems. They'd tell me this and that, so and so blablabla. They expect consolation and comfort from me. And what happens when things were good for em? I hear nothing. Seriously, i never bother you guys with my problems and i don't expect anything either. So, don't come crying to me only durng the bad times. Like, you think i care?!

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I only have myself.

It hit me hard. I was browsing through my testimonials and saw the two testimos which boyfriend wrote for me. I read again and again for god-knows-how many times. For the past 30mins, i've reading it over and over again. My cellphone vibrated. I glanced over immediately, thinking that it'll be my boyfriend. Apparently, its not. The next thing i know, i began tearing. I can't swallow it down anymore. Its too devastating to face the fact that my life will be completely devoid of you. I cried til my pillows were soaked with tears. For a moment, i thought there'll be this high possibility of me getting a dehydration. I just er, cry so hard.

I realised that im just an ex-girlfriend.
Its time to wake up.

Everything's lost. He's no longer there with me. We broke up on 11.12.2006, the day before it hits four months. Its been 5 days. I've been living in self-denial all these while. I didn't cry at all until today. It took me five days to accept this cold hard truth. Til now, i can still feel my heart sinking. Its like a bottomless pit. Tears ain't salty. They taste bitter. Even much more bitter compared to the previous time. Well, i only have myself to cry to. Yah, i only have myself.

Fortunately, its holidays now. I don't have to make sure i smile everynow and then to make myself and others feel good.

I'm really sorry for deluding myself and my beloved friends.

I don't know what i'm doing. Its really heartwrenching to go through this kinda shit again, for the second time. I feel like my heart's heavily broken into a million pieces. I thought we'll be able to make it. I really thought so. You're the one who assure me for that. You said you won't leave me but sad to say, you did. You fucking left me for the second time. I know you didn't want it. I know. It wasn't easy at all.

Things simply won't snap back into place anymore. Your presence makes those promises seem redundant.

Sorry that things turned out this way. I'm sure you feel bad about it too. So, i don't blame you. Both of us tried. We give and take but sometimes things just won't turn out the way we want it to be.
Now that its over, what else could it be? Accept it.

Thanks for putting up with my nonsense for so long.
Thanks for knowing me.
Thanks for being so patient with me.
Thanks for being there when i needed you.
Thanks for being my boyfriend.
Thanks for everything lil thing.
Thanks for making me your girlfriend.
Thanks for being you.
Thanks for appreciating.
Thanks for getting back together.
Thanks for loving me.



No one will be there to catch me anymore when i lose my balance on the train or bus. I'll miss holding your hands. I love the way how my hand always fit yours. I'll pick myself up and move on. I promise i will try and let go.

I've never been this sober.






Love.

Cmath today was OKAY. yeap. I'll be very happy if i can score 60% and above. ((:* Went to school early even tho the paper starts at 0430pm. Had to teach Silvia math you see...Can you even imagine me teaching other people maths?! Hello...not eng, not chinese, not humanities but MATHS. Ohmyholynuts. Totally unbelievable.

And, my calculator's insane.

CMath's the last one.

Meaning, HOLIDAYS !

Nieco's going back tomorrow. I met him for the last time just now.

N: ' I wished time could stop now. '

Me: *how i wished time just fast forward 100x*

Alright. I know im really mean but thats what i was thinking.

ahhh. whatever.

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what the fucking hell did i do?!?!?!

must be the cough syrup.

its soooo not me.

*regret

I'm thinking of switching over to Livejournal.

how how how?!

I realised i've been receiving quite a number of prezzies lately. Out of all these, the most valuable would be the care and concern from friends. LOVEyou guys deep deep.

Weiqiang called and go downstairs to meet him. Apparently, he's with Nieco. Yup, Nieco bought me a CK perfume. A good-bye gift. He's leaving on the 16th Dec.

You're really nice. I appreciate all the things you do. Sorry but i prefer *Armani*[inside].

Me-to-you chocolate bear.

Fragrance.

...and a bugs bunny tee.

I wore it and forgot to take a pict.

Happy Feet from Sunny.

His name is MOMO.

I still have lots more which have yet to be claimed.

=D

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I dreamt of sweet yesterday night. A short one but nice.

I won't say whats the dream about.

Well, a dream is a dream. You'll have to wake up one day.

Studied math today at Cathay's Starbucks.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO STARBUCKS!!!

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Thanks to Nieco for the Me-to-you chocolate bear.

Thanks to Nieco for the shirt.

Thanks to Sunny for the HappyFeet toy.

Thanks for cheering me up.

I'm sorry that i screwed up my DMD theory. I SHOULD have just chuck every other thing aside and study but i didn't.

Okay. I'm so gon` mug for my maths.
Maths, my favourite. I need to clear those doubts for Logic, Binary and relations. Fuck Binary. Its sooo tedious. iLOVE functions. Whatever.

I've got a bad headache.

Must be the cough syrup.

Oh, I'm suffering from Choya-overdosed.

I'm so proud of myself sometimes.

GUMMIES anyone?!

[Deck the Halls]

[Happy Feet]'s good.

How nice would it be if i have the baby penguin.

I don't mind even if its just a soft toy.

Thanks alot.

you know who you are.

(=

We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it

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So much for my happy ending

Its 12pm in the afternoon. Surprisingly, i woke up early considering that the fact that its a Saturday.

No school for the following week except Thursday and Friday. Have to go back for both DMD and CMath paper. There're so many projects to be handed up on week14/15. Holy nuts. You think 2 weeks of holidays is enough?! Total madness.


Everybody's dying.
Why?!





Christmas. Like what the hell is christmas?!
I HATE it. Probably gon` go through the same shit again if i keep wallowing in there.
Well, hard to get out.

Caught a movie after school with Jiahao. I told him i wanna study. Well, i guess im not in the mood to do so. Already in holiday mood okay.

[Cinderella]
A korean horror flick. Nonsense. Both of us didn't really understand the story. Its a confusing one. I did freaked out in a couple of scenes. In conclusion, its not worth watching at all. What a waste of his money. lol.

Went BurgerKing to have his meal.

Home-sweet-home.


Oh, how come those guys whom i got to know from balestier ite all got the same sentiments?
They all thought that i don't know how to speak chinese.
AHHA.

I'M A CHINESE.

((:*




Both Weiqiang and Nieco depart for Thailand this afternoon for their swimming competition if im not wrong. Take care. All the best alright ((:*
Be back soon.


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It was disastrous the first time.
It became nothing the second time.

xoxo

Late for Database lesson.

Lunched at South canteen with sunny, bear, shawn, sathish and venu.

Decided to skip Digital Media Design class.

Went AngMoKio with sunny and friend.

Saw Dajie on the way out.

The four of us went for Daytona first.

Angeline joined us over at Kpool.

Back for CMath lecture.

You think i paid any attention?!

LOL.

Was doodling around and listening to symphony.

yeah, its symphony.

Yesterday...

Weiqiang.

Its com skills test tomorrow.

*yawns

Java was well, kinda manageable today. Thanks to Darryll. He told me what i need to know. Got the JOptionPane question. Nice one. Exactly the one i hoped for. Question1 was compiling and execute. I had trouble doing that. Fortunately, Sunny sat beside me. ((=
I think i'll at least pass.
*beams



Met up with Syl after school. Hit town again, yeah, again..together with elmo, jiahao and redza(?). Two of their friends joined in shortly.

Walked around cause Syl wanted to get nail polish. The guys had their lunch at Far East. Okay, i've never been to that level before. Weird place. Full of malays. Syl and i didn't order anything. I was thinking of Swensen's fried mushrooms and ice-cream. So just ordered ice milo. I swear that ice milo tasted like holy shit. Wait, not holy at all. Something between vomit and toilet smell. Eeee. smelly poo poo drink. Yucks. A few sips and thats it.

Lucky plaza, for pool and daytona.
They pool-ed. I sat and watched em pool-ed. Played only Daytona. LOL. At least now im not the last. Not to forget, there's a punch machine. Punched once and i felt the pain. My score's like 26?! haha. Jiahao's like hundred ++. ohmygod.

The rest went Esplanade while i headed back to Sembawang to meet Weiqiang. Nieco's there too. Finally got the High School Musical from him. Chit-chat awhile then home.

Syl called on the way back. Asked to go Woodlands with em.
Insane. HAHA
=D


Oh, Sunny said its weird hanging out with Princess Jenny.
With reference, www.actcadenza.blogspot.com


pictures will be up soon.

What a long day...

Had like 4 hours of break after elective. Was deciding where to have our brunch and of course, kill time before the cmaths lecture starts.

Sunny, bear, angeline, silvia, irving and i.
Finally settled on Pizzahut at MarinaSquare after much dilly-dallying.
*yum yum


Window-shopped around.
etc etc etc.

Decided to skip cmath lecture.
bad, i know.

Off to Bugis. Irving need to collect his cellphone.
Angeline bought an mp3 over at SimLim for her boyfriend.

Dinner at some place. Near bugis but i don't know where.
Nevermind.

Home.

Basically, there's alot of walking. And i meant, ALOT.
ohmygod.

Today's not a photo day for me, so i shall not upload any.
((:*




JAVA COMMON TEST ON WED.
someone kill me please.
thanks.

Look what my sis bought for me today.





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Its ELMO !!!


*beams

Went town for dinner. I bought NOTHING. holy cows. =D

Saw a pair of wedges which i like. Well, my size was sold out.
How nice and lucky.

No pictures for today.

Town was packed like i dont know what.

I've nuts idea why my sis's getting so rich nowadays. I'm not that pathetic also. Just tryna spend less and learn to be thrifty. Good uh?
((=


Mommy said im nothing but sarcasm.
random random random.

I thought i dislike taiwan dramas. Been watching the 7pm serial drama on channelU. Addicted. Ohmyholyholygod. Yeah, just another fantasy love story between a fairy and mortal. I LIKE! I like fantasy dramas. Especially those sad love story with a happy ending. Thats why i've got a fetish for those tear-jerking korean dramas. Well, i'm not a sadistic person okay.

Anyway, i had a good laugh today. Laughing at DMD lecturer. Laughing at myself during Java lecture.

'saplise'
'lumber'
'O-ish'

Wondering wth are all these?!

Surprise
Number
Always


'O-ish' was the last straw. I didn't laugh initially. Was busy msn-drawing with Silvia who was just next to me. Quite a number of people were actually looking at our comps from outside the lab. Okay. Thats not the main point.

Lets not digress.

As i said, i didn't laugh at first. I only burst out laughing when Angeline imitated his 'O-ish' right after he finished his sentence. Ohmygod. The DMD lecturer paused for a moment when we laughed out loud. HAHA. We sit at the first row you see...Freaking hilarious to the max.
We mean no harm. =D


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I hate Java and i suck at it. Help anyone?!

Kind souls will be rewarded.

((:*

Stop bombarding my cellphone with text messages please! Nieco, go for your whatever swimming competition. I'm so not going out with you. Go on, 'cry' all you want. You know i don't care.

This is soooo irritating to the MAX.